Last night was crazy I got very dizzy and shaky at work and then boom I hit the floor I was rushed to mass general where I was hooked up with tubes and had catscans a good dose of morphen and a lumbar puncture aka the spinal tap they stick a huge needle in your lower spine and drain the fluid it sucked and I was in so much pain as of right now my ( Read more... )

I have something I bought a while ago that no one knows about not even the person I got it for it cost a little bit of money but it means so much more its a question for the ages a couple of words that can't be said but I'd love to. This gift I will hold on to until the day I die or the day I feel is right to give but I will hold this gift for you

As I sit on the exit at work and think the deepest thoughts and stare of into the blue sky and tge sunseting I wonder if anybody else is doing the same thing I am in the same situation were you feel like your competeing for love but its not a game you can't just love a prize you can never really own something you love but you can never let it go. ( Read more... )

Things feel so much better after a day of much needed fun. I must be a junkie for this girl after I have been with her I find myself wanting more and when I'm with her I'm so happy when I'm away I feel down the best way I can think of it is she is like me drug. I'm on my way to work and I stare at these girls and all I see is her face. I'm just ( Read more... )

I probably won't call and staying with you just would be weird so I car bound for a bit

Sleeping in car
.everything is falling apart.you don't sleep at night.you find yourself just alone.your favorite songs don't sound the same.your favorite foods taste different.you have a hate for people around you.wanting to kill two people.

I hate my life everything is upside down I'm starting to like going to work and I work out everyday an hour before work I eat nothing but healthy stuff its weird but I'm trying to improve myself I want people to look at me and say he cares about himself I dunno anymore joined a gym ugh I have more free time then I think my world caved in the last ( Read more... )

I miss you so much

I have been thinking thou its only been a couple hours but Its cool, not really. I was never anything more then what You wanted me to be, but I was always less, I tried really hard to figure out where im going it doesn't matter as long as im with you, I was just alone in my life of wheels and people but the people I see the faces as they pass they ( Read more... )

life has been hard lately and its only going to get harder. Im trying to make my life easier but its going wrong, I work night lacey works days Im trying to spend as much time with her as possible but its not working. I mean I won't be able to party anymore I can't drink with my friends, I can't go to school, I can't have fun I have to work my ass ( Read more... )