I have never hated anything more then I hate my job. I don't want to live in this place anymore I fucked up my life and its looking like a one way street to loser town for me what do I have left but dreams of an easy life

I hate everything nothing is right nothing at all april was the worst month ever death of my mother set a steady pace of decay the rot in the air is ridiculious, and you most of all are self centered your never satisfyed, you scold me for caring you so smart and a fucking retard at the same moment I'm sorry I can't be as deep as you I'm sorry I don ( Read more... )

The desolent streets of 230am is my new friend. Work, sleep, work, sleep who knew at the age of 20 I would be a zombie a lifeless beaing that no one cares for. You get lonly after awhile the comfort you have is your empty for the hope of sleep. I have just became everything I never wanted to be, a coffee drinker cup after cup its fuel for the ( Read more... )

I keep fucking up I'm going to lose my car insurence and that means I can't get to work in the mornings so I'm fucked hard I just suck and should die

Time, time that I do not get to spend. What a waste, spending vacation with someone you see everyday, retarded. The backseat is becoming my place I feel I don't desearve this. Spending night after night alone what has really changed nothing, nothing at all. This is bullshit. Have fun.

I'm twisted and wasted as my breath fills the air my blood does run cold like your eyes like your heart

This is it I've found out what you've done when I see you this dream will be over and your nightmare will begin

Your my greatest challenge

I felt like sitting, sitting and not moving just letting time go by watching life as I know it crumble. I feel as though I'm letting everyone down, lacey, my dad, my friends, and myself. Whatever I have left in me is gasping for life and nobody knows cpr. I don't think anyone wants me around anymore and all I want is reasurrence.

Yeah its been about a couple days since we have been back together and I just love this girl. Even thou she makes fun of me when I play my video games and yell at them lol. Might be moving into an apt with tom soon should be fun I hope lacey moves in with me. Well I'm guna continue working.