I had a conversation with her last night that was intermittently interrupted by furious kissing and groping. The gist of which was "I'm afraid you won't want to be my friend if I don't want to fuck you".
I don't think there is anyone who wins in a conversation like that. It's also confusing when you legitimately can't tell if she's asking because ( Read more... )

Run from anyone who shows interest in "setting you up with someone".

I'm leaving Houston today. I spent a week with my parents. I argued with my dad once about the uprising in Baltimore. I saw The Who and Roger seemed over it. I saw alligators in the bayou. I saw San Jacinto where Santa Ana was defeated and captured. I saw the opening of the west for conquest through manifest destiny by the U.S. government. I saw ( Read more... )

The sermon was on Jesus' parable about the forgiveness of debt and I got bored and started to thumb through the rest of the Bible.

I got really fascinated with plans and sepcifications for building of temples in Ezekiel.

Unsurprising that Chriatians have eschewed these details in the face of modern context.

I wonder if Jewish temples still use ( Read more... )

I just texted her and congratulated her on the doc and she said we should hang out when she gets to LA. Maybe I'm just a fucking idiot after all.

I am really upset because I just watched a documentary made by the girl I slept with and who stopped responding to me immediately afterward and it was pretty good. I like to think that I'm not a vindictive person, but I am actually kind of vindictive. I kind of want her to fail now. I know it's not likely because she's from a wealthy family and if ( Read more... )

I have become ao homogenized and worn down by the world around me. I wish I had the energy to defy the forces grinding me down, but I just don't anymore. I'm getting old.

I am creatively stagnant for like the last decade.

The summation of my depression can be that I don't believe there is a human being capable of really being in love with me for the rest of my life or even for an extended period of time anymore. In fact I've found very little evidence that anyone wants to be with me even for a short period of time.

I have become nihilistically cynical about the ( Read more... )

They've started talking about shawshank. I think I pulled something rolling my eyes.