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[disposableparts]

So honestly, if someone would just love to drop off a satchel of 5g's on my doorstep, that would be fantastic. My money is blowing away before my eyes and I can't stop it, and now with the death of my laptop (R.I.P. Simone) it's just going to fly out even faster. I'm torn between dropping the cash to get a new computer, around an even $1,000 or

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[allbadendsall]

for some reason(maybe i can relate) this is by far! my favorite entry you have ever posted, maybe it's because of all the negativity i had in my third year but damn this is some life affirming shit here. and i like it. thank you paul. no seriously this isnt meant to sound sarcastic at all it just reminded me of my hard times and now we have something to talk about(not like we didnt before) but yeah. i feel you. and that FUCKING SUCKS about your laptop, i have money issues too and i can definately feel that shit and it blows....sorry. i hope things will get better once you make that trip...i had one of those too and it helps, believe me, it helps to no end. well i wish you luck in these next few weeks.

[disposableparts]

I appreciate that, Sean, honestly. I know we all have problems and they eventually kind of dissipate, and I know most of us are in kind of a similar boat with all of this, and it kind of makes me feel better that I'm not alone in any of it, but that just means it kind of sucks even more that none of us have really found a solution, not that there is one. I wish there was. Which is where the bag o' cash would come into play. I'll see you in the next few weeks, no doubt, so we'll dicuss if need be. Hello, we have Thursday and the whole Royal Tenenbaums thing. SWEET.

[messofmemories]

You know that on my list of people I worry about, you're up there, and probably always will be just because I love you that much. I think it was the hardest thing when people were telling me to just snap out of it and get on with my life and I wanted to beat them and tell them it wasn't that fucking easy. Have you considered taking a semester off, or are you scared you won't go back? I mean, it's not the easiest thing to do because then you're like, "well, one more semester..." but it might help you start to clear your head about this whole degree thing and really figure out what you want to do.

[disposableparts]

You don't need to worry about me, I'm a big girl, but I appreciate it just the same. I thought about taking a semester off, and I'd kind of like to, but then again doing that is just going to prolong school even more and, like you said, I might like it too much and just not want to come back, which would make things just that much worse for me when I did. I know I can do it, I just really need to beat myself for a few hours and get used to my situation instead of trying to change it with whimsical thoughts about how I want it to be. I'll be fine, the upper lip just needs to get a little more stiff.

[lovedsoon]

but I'm just so confused as to how all of this is moving so slowly, when the past years have just flown by

What a perfect line to say what I've been struggling to find words for.

My friends and I did this huge marketing research project on The Facebook and discovered in the end that the advertising they do on the sidebar is incredibly ineffective. And annoying. We thought about selling them all of our mathematical findings but I think we got lazy. The point of telling you this was really just to say that during our presentation of the project, we stuck in a Powerpoint slide of everyone in the class's Facebook picture. Some of them were really drunken and humiliating but we had no sympathy and put them on the projector anyway.

[disposableparts]

I'm kind of glad and then kind of hating the fact that you can feel the same way.

That's actually pretty fucking hilarious, I would have loved to have been in that class and seen everyone's faces when they saw theirs. I wish the girl next to me at the time would have been that creative and funny, but she just looked creepalicious instead.