Well this is gonna be the last one i ever write. I guess its just the final chapter in this part of my life... I still dont know exactly what went on or how it happened but my life has changed quite drasticly. Im pretty sure i know that started it, and its not something im proud of. Yet again this is something im not quite sure about or exactly how ( Read more... )

its all so confusing. i dont know what it was but the other nite on the phone, reality hit very very hard. i didnt want it to happen, but i guess someone had to say it. i didnt want it to happen, not at all. and it hurt, quite a lot i might add. but i think that is what needed to happen. maybe some day we will be together, but now just isnt the ( Read more... )

well once again the perfect girl series continues. lets see what im feeling these days ( Read more... )

i love when people assume shit and then i get in trouble. i aso love trust.......or lack there of.i dont think i will ever trust a girl again. so something that i think is not a big deal, is turned into one. the one person i trusted with everything, goes behind my back, reads my mail, then throws it in my face. how fucked up is that.im not even ( Read more... )

im not mad at you and i wanst mad at you. i just dont like the situation and i was upset. so dont take it personaly or be mad at me. i just dont wanna say something i will regret because that would be horrible. so forgive me if i hurt you and im sorry. this whole thing is just fucked and im not sure with how to deal with it

school......school is gonna be tough, no doubt. and u are gonna see alot of ur friends and thats good. ur also see alot of guys, and ur prob flirt. thats ok, i just hope it doesnt go past that. and i know today was wierd, it was def weird for me and i worried about you, and about us. and it makes u think, and it makes me think about us being ( Read more... )

wow what a nite. that was crazy. she must really be comfy with me because thats a big step. im happy though because i think this will take the relationship to a new level and im ready for it. im glad shes back from the beach............but i dont want vball to start......crap. o well i love you and im glad your back. thanks for an amazing nite ( Read more... )

the perfect girl. i had a post before that listed everything i wanted in a girl. well i found out that the post earlier was wrong. people can dream and think what the idea of perfect is. u may want a short girl, u may want a stick girl. but i realized that i dont want the perfect girl with brown hair and tons of cash or what not. i dont want that. ( Read more... )

so i just got back from the beach and its sorta pathetic that i didnt go out to the beach at all during the day. i mean it was so damn hot. i mean really really hot. so me and geoff just hung out in the hotel all day then came out at nite. it wasnt as fun as i thought. i could have done that for 2 days then come home. thats the only thing i would ( Read more... )

so i got about 5 days left to my bday, i think its gonna be great even though my parents r outta town but ill be hanging out with amanda and ricky the whole time, and lopez cause hes my baby haha. im gonna be getting proably like 4 cakes from different people so ill prob be fat. even thought im going on a diet tomorrow cause i need to lose the ( Read more... )