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dictionarysays

(SMAP) Try, Tried, Trying

Jan 08, 2011 18:04

Try, Tried, Trying
Shingo/Tsuyoshi, SMAP | PG-13 | 2,584 words

NONE OF THIS IS REAL LIFE.

( Shingo’s suddenly reminded of late nights spent on the couch with Tsuyopon, beers between their knees )

pairing: shingo/tsuyoshi, je: super men always perfect, length: 1-shot, fan!fic, rating: peegee-13

Comments 17

faiee January 11 2011, 05:59:57 UTC

I started reading this at work (despite the insane amounts of things I have to do) - but when I got to the part where I realised Tsuyopon was dead, I decided I HAD TO STOP BEFORE I READ ON AND BAWL AT WORK.

Will be back. Just wanted to reserve first spot and say: I HAVE FIC TO READ. FROM YOU AT THAT! Yay. (Even though Tsuyopon dies ))))))): )

faiee January 11 2011, 11:38:54 UTC

BWAH. THE IDEA OF IT KILLS ME ALREADY AND THEN YOU WRITE IT SO WELL THAT IT KILLS ME TWICE OVER.

)):

I brought home a shitload of work so I REALLY SHOULDN'T BE COMMENTING but here're my favouritest lines

It finally hits him. They’re all hurting. They’ve all lost someone they love and they’re never getting him back ( ... )

dictionarysays January 11 2011, 22:31:35 UTC

I'M SORRY, BB. DDDDD:

I still haven't been able to get around the idea THAT I KILLED TSUYOPON, even if it's not rl. ;A;

Honestly? The fact you can't read it again is totally a good thing! I mean, if it can muster an emotion out of you, especially something like that? As obvious as that might be, the fact you took time out of your life to read this puddle of poop is enough for me. /:

After finally finishing this, I like, re-watched several SxS skits I still have on my drive and every time I saw Tsuyopon I kept thinking, dear god, what have I done? ILUSM!

I'm never writing character death again. I've read so many 'fics with that, and people who can do it more than once? Kudos to 'em, because this shit be heartbreaking.

I HOPE YOU DON'T H8 ME. I H8 ME.))):

/holds Tsuyopon to her bosom

faiee January 12 2011, 07:23:37 UTC

I'm so glad he was all cute and bubbly in that Chicken Heart clip (because I dled it and watched it subbed again DESPITE THE FACT I TRANSLATED IT :PP) so that helped to cheer me up.

Oh no (Ohno! - He's actually creeping up on me. Bit by bit, there's moments I find him cute. Crap. They're all sneaky that way.) I couldn't possibly hate you bb <3

honeyswallow January 11 2011, 13:48:10 UTC

yeah, same here, I can't fnish this right now, jesus Christ your timing. This is too brilliant for its own good.

dictionarysays January 11 2011, 22:33:25 UTC

I'M SORRY. ONCE AGAIN. I understand, the thought alone makes me depressingly sad it's sad. I'll also understand if you're never able to finish this. DD:

honeyswallow January 12 2011, 00:59:45 UTC

Don't worry I finished it, because a piece that can evoke such strong emotions, no matter what kind of emotions they might be, is a very very good one.

dictionarysays January 13 2011, 00:24:48 UTC

That's probably the nicest thing you could've said and that's the exact same thought I was having about this whole badboy. Althooooough, there's always things like Twilight, so of course I kinda' hope I'm not quite like that. 8D

But srsly, thank you. Just reading it is enough. Um, also, because I realized this a few months back, I've read your 'fics how many times? And have lurked the shit out of them repeatedly and I've SWORN to comment under my favourites--WHICH IS MANY--soon. Just so you know :Dbb

25lalalee36 January 11 2011, 18:36:54 UTC

Okay, I read it...now give me some few days to stop crying and I will come back to properly comment... probably

dictionarysays January 11 2011, 22:35:57 UTC

Aaaaaaaw, bb. ;A;

I, I mean, it should be heartbreaking, the idea itself is unimaginably depressing, so... I guess, as a writer, it's almost nice that you feel that way, but as a friend and Tsuyopon-lover, IT KILLS MY HEART. )))))):

It s'okay if you aren't able to ever comment properly.

25lalalee36 January 11 2011, 22:45:07 UTC

You know, it's crazy... It's been really a whole something got me this much... Maybe I went finally crazy or something, but right now, just remembering it makes me cry once again... I will definitely come to comment later, I'm just not sure how long it will take me to recover :D

dictionarysays January 11 2011, 23:10:35 UTC

Oh, sweetie. /hugs I know what you mean, though, I get that too, but I'm also just a crybaby in general, be it movies, books, songs, 'fics, anything--I'll cry if it affects me in some sort of way.

Take as long as you need to~ 8D

Thread 5

25lalalee36 January 12 2011, 00:34:37 UTC

Okay, so let's stop the whining ( ... )

25lalalee36 February 4 2011, 14:35:09 UTC

I'm sorry for spaming (now I seem like a stalker :D) Just thought I would drop by and told you about that... I was ironing and watching We are SMAP con during that and suddenly remembered about Kimura-kun's: “Tonight, we know you’re right here on stage with us. Right now, we are SMAP.” and totally got a goosebumps and felt like crying... How come that one fanfic stays with you this long? Or maybe I really finally went nuts...

hereticpop January 14 2011, 17:55:15 UTC

hah, it seems everyone needs some time after reading this fic before commenting properly, I had to have some too. because it just creates such a void in you, it's impossible to really tell how you feel right after reading.

I also won't be able to quote anything, because I can't bring myself to read it again, even look through it again - this shit is just too strong. I'd cry my eyes out.

I always hated character death fics and I actually always skipped them. especially when I could tell that they would be well-written, because it just feels so real then and that's too much to take for me. so consider yourself my first. ;) and I guessed it was character death right away, somehow Shingo's depression is so very well described, so real, it couldn't be anything but death ( ... )