its been 105 weeks since i last posted. i can't believe this account is still active ( Read more... )

so I haven't been here in ages. This is my life thus far:

I'm slightly addicted to Sudoku.
My job makes me very very tired. Everyone is so very demanding. 
I have three classes that I don't really care about anymore.
I've been enjoying the snow.
This past Valentine's Day was my favorite. No I did not have a valentine. Except my daddy. But he's my ( Read more... )

my sister told me that i at one time blew up at her and said some very nasty things.

the only problem is, i don't remember these things ever happening.

so do i:

a) believe her and admit that i have a bad anger problem

or

b) not trust her because she's the crazy one, not me

she does often exagerate. but i also get moody.

i feel the following things:

inadequate
swollen
lame
selfish
jealous
dissapointing
ugly
worthless
pitiful
vain
egotistical
insignificant
petty 
childish
and ridiculous.

any questions? please don't ask. i won't answer

i miss him. i thought i wouldn't.

but i miss him already.

i worked so hard to move away from that. and i'm sucked back in to him.

gahgahgah i want to curl up and shrink away beneath my comforter so at least i'm warm when i drown myself in thoughts of what could have been.

happy gotdamn new year.

yay.

that's all.

I hear back from USC in a little over 80 hours ( Read more... )

who needs sleep anyways?

the verdict is out

and i will not be (socailly) alive till after christmas.

which is really a shame. because i have some kick ass gifts for my rapp boys.

so i was stranded on the side of a mountain last night/this morning.

a stranger in a benz bummed a ciggarette off me as he drove me up the side of the mountain that left me stranded.

it is a little scary the more i think about it.
so i'm just going to stop.