wow a day off!?! what do i do? shit i don't even effin' know! anyway just wanted to post and let every one know i am still alive...

What do i write? idk fucking know; got so much top say... at the top of my lungs and fists clenched! but they are all just ideas; my fucked up view of the world... i don't want to give them the strenghth of being put onto paper... much less let every one in the world know... i think it's best if i just shut my mouth and don't say a word about it ( Read more... )

wow it's been a while again... kinda forming a pattern huh...

i haven't posted in a while huh? good reason tho... work... and then spending time with jackie... she is so great... she's just sweet and great! we have a lot in common... music, and lots of the lil stupid things that make it really cool... she got me to looking at wearing a differnt "style" cloths... cool i think cause i like it... just never wore ( Read more... )

guess what!! the girl i was talking about yesterday... jackie that works over at longhorn... she came to o' charley's and sat in my section... she made out that it was mer cowinkie dink! ya whatever she so came to see me! hah that feels so awsome... she had her sisters with her 9-15 they where really nice and the youngest one is so cute... anyway ( Read more... )

wow it's been a few days since i last posted... i've been working, ya know a lot... not making the money i really want just yet, but i am making a lot of friends... and friends are good as gold, they just don't buy things... it's crazy girls just keep bouncing in and out... of my head... i can say yesterday was pretty good... i got 3 numbers! 3! i' ( Read more... )

I compare every female to lindsay in some way... i mean if i like something more or hate something i compare it to lindsay... i mean really i have only seen her going into a store once in the last effin' 4-5 months! and shit i still ccompare her why i don't fucking know why and i just fucking wish it would stop... i mean shit it's been a long ass ( Read more... )

what is my deal i meet chicks and find a million things i love about them... i'm a idiot... so i got another one that shockingly i have a million great things about her... just this time it's not cause i have a infatuation... just that she is really sweet... and she has the old school can't find the word ... she's a lil old fashioned... and that is ( Read more... )

ok work today... i get sent to the dry storage to find a mechanical banana peeler... i'm standing there looking my ass off for a brass machine looking contraption saying "why the fuck don't you just use your fucking hands?" and the manager who sent me looking goes "there is no banana peeler in there..." i was so effin' imbarressed... i mean i was ( Read more... )

NIN i so got to go see nine inch nails... got back and so took a Xanax... i figure everyone else is doing it so why not... hell the worst that could happen is that i die... it was ok... i guess i mean i didn't get too fucked up just a lil... one pill did the trick... i probley won't even do it again... i mean it was nothing to write home about... ( Read more... )