so, i need to stop being so obsessive over Bergman films. i'm renting them from the uni library with such haste, & i realised i'm not doing my work, because i'm being so distracted by just watching films all the time. i've got so much work to get done by wednesday, i also need to sort a photoshoot, & figure out what i need to prepare for thursday ( Read more... )

i've really messed up, & would prefer to forget most of the last year.

so, i just witnessed my dad do something i've not seen from him since i was about 11 ( Read more... )

i keep thinking about you. those mornings, & recalling how perfect & peaceful you looked with the muted light through the curtains giving your shoulders a warm, red glow. just seeing it in my mind breaks me, & i will always be able to see it clearly when i think of you. stirring in our shared warmth. we didn't care how we looked in the morning. how ( Read more... )

Wish I could remember why it mattered to me. It doesn’t matter to me. It doesn’t matter to me anymore. Now that you’re feeling fine, I’ll admit that - though I know it’s coming down, and see it shattering me - it doesn’t matter to me, and I’m not sadder for seeing it come. I’m not going to run. I will just come when I am called. You want to cut me ( Read more... )

i'm not happy, & i'm feeling very aggressive tonight.

some people are interfering bastards, & i'm going to end up kicking someone square in the face.

i really am.

i enroled at uni today ( Read more... )

i feel very lonely tonight ( Read more... )

adam told me he doesn't want to continue seeing me, after i stayed with him for a couple of days. not sure why he couldn't tell me at the start of my stay, rather than before i left. i'm not pleased to say the least, but hell.. i can do nothing. he's not the first. won't be the last. i always soldier on. obviously. christ ( Read more... )

oh christ, what are you moaning about now rachel? shut up you ridiculous bitch.