Shadows.

[dervishspin]

I love and hate writing this game

Comments

[lisefrac]

I'm so sorry you're feeling burnt out. I can't imagine what it must be like to orchestrate something on this scale. Please, do what you need to do to feel comfortable again.

I hear you on being a GM, though. The thing that always makes me sad about Cracks is that I can't really spy on all the interactions the characters are having. In some ways I feel more cut off as a GM, knowing all the plot, than I do being one of the players.

[dervishspin]

Yes. It is excruciatingly wonderful and excruciatingly terrible to be the writer.

Also, I don't know if I truly like making the players cry. I haven't decided.

There is probably a post in me about the destruction of expectations and what that does to players and staff. And people, really.

[nomadmwe]

Also, I don't know if I truly like making the players cry.

Yeah, I think that there's kind of an overemphasis on this (even if jokingly so) and it kinda bothers me.

Unremitting angst is pretty bad. :/

[lisefrac]

There is probably a post in me about the destruction of expectations and what that does to players and staff. And people, really.

I would read that.

Would playing minigames, Intercon-style, help at all? Or do you prefer the deeper immersion of a campaign character?

[sebastian_sarr]

I can't suggest strongly enough that you play something, if you can at all manage and enjoy it. Preferably something relatively casual and "homework"-light.

I've always found that it not only made me feel less of the GM isolation that you mention, but helped me remember what's fun (and not fun) for players. If I don't PC for a while, I worry that my writing and running will suffer.

[dervishspin]

That was exactly my thought. What do players find fun, remember what it is like to be a player.

I did not factor in the isolation. I didn't feel that in Realms, but I had other support structures then, and the games were a different thing to run than this.

I just don't know what the hell to play. Nothing that is currently running is screaming my name. And I don't play casual, so that's hard.

What I want is the drop kick into my character's head and the connection to the other players on profound level.
I think I miss Helen.
A lot.

[white_and_nrdy]

Covenant. Just saying. ;)

And I hear you. I like the balance I've found. But it would be tough to back down to this "middle management" sort of level from where you are now. I'm writing and running plots, and helping others with theirs, but only as many as I can handle.

I wouldn't mind playing a one-shot apocalypse style game, just to be a player for once. That might help you.

[dervishspin]

I have some problems with Covenant.
I am a practicing Shaman. In my real life.
You have a Shamanic class.
I don't think what is written will work for me.

Also, I want the community I know right now. I don't have it in me to meet what amounts to all new players, I don't think.

[redfishie]

Ideally I think all gms should play as well if they can manage it at the same time. Thank you for everything.

[dervishspin]

I think so too, but I felt like I needed to get the first year of Shadows under my belt before I did it.

Not quiiiiiite making it, I think.

[cristovau]

One of the things I've learned writing this game? You must be a kick-ass player.

Hope we can share that side of the fence sometime.

[dervishspin]

Yes. That would be lovely.

[siriel]

I hear you. In retrospect, I'm amazed I made it to the end of Endgame.