I competed in Kings and Queen's Bardic Champs yesterday. Like last year my performances were strong enough to get me selected for the final round
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I have lost every Bardic Competition I have ever competed in. Some I've understood. Some continue to mystify me. Frequently one of the judges will come up to me after the competition and express admiration for my voice, my art, etc. Apparently, I'm very, very good at coming in second.
*hug*
Hang in there. I keep trying to remind myself that whatever the outcome of the competition, I made good art that day.
I have a small wooden box that contains all of the tokens I've received- mostly for A&S displays and competitions. I call it my "I don't suck" box. It helped a lot as I was developing my confidence.
What it comes down to, though, is my brand of performance is not what the Royalty feels like they need right now
Having gone through many auditions myself and coaching many performers for their auditions, I can say that this is the hardest thing to swallow. You go in, nail your audition to the wall, and then get nothing or 3rd spear-chucker from the left in the way-back of the chorus which is sometimes worse.
It's really hard to not let your ego get in the way and it's harder to not let it get you down. I know a theatrical or music audition is a little different from your Bardic Competition in some respects. That said, I always try to learn what I can from the auditions that I didn't win -- looking at what I feel I did right and where I could have gone wrong. In the end, though, we have ZERO control over what's going through the decision maker's head. If you don't look the part/aren't what they had in mind/whatever, it doesn't matter how awesome you are, you lose.
That doesn't make you any less awesome, though. :)
I haven't competed so much, but I perform every week and always feel it. The nailing it. And the not winning. When they are the same week its just hard.
(This week I nailed it, and one of the compliments was "I heard every word". Yeah. I hate that.)
Having everyone hear you is certainly part of the nailing it. In the SCA we have to deal with messed up acoustics everywhere we go, and speaking in court and making sure you are heard in the back is of major concern for everyone.
Being heard is awesome. I agree though, there is being heard: loud and there is being heard: listened to. Perhaps that person meant both.
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*hug*
Hang in there. I keep trying to remind myself that whatever the outcome of the competition, I made good art that day.
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You are right.
Thank you!
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I look forward to the day they reunite and are a big box of I don't Suck.
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Having gone through many auditions myself and coaching many performers for their auditions, I can say that this is the hardest thing to swallow. You go in, nail your audition to the wall, and then get nothing or 3rd spear-chucker from the left in the way-back of the chorus which is sometimes worse.
It's really hard to not let your ego get in the way and it's harder to not let it get you down. I know a theatrical or music audition is a little different from your Bardic Competition in some respects. That said, I always try to learn what I can from the auditions that I didn't win -- looking at what I feel I did right and where I could have gone wrong. In the end, though, we have ZERO control over what's going through the decision maker's head. If you don't look the part/aren't what they had in mind/whatever, it doesn't matter how awesome you are, you lose.
That doesn't make you any less awesome, though. :)
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And of course you understand!
I am glad you posted.
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I think we should go cause some bardic trouble together.
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(This week I nailed it, and one of the compliments was "I heard every word". Yeah. I hate that.)
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Being heard is awesome.
I agree though, there is being heard: loud and there is being heard: listened to. Perhaps that person meant both.
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