It was around 5:15 on Thursday the 9th, I was taking a shower about to get ready to meet my friend Sarah at 6:00 when my mom knocks on the door telling me that Patricia is here. I got out of the shower and I went to go see why Patricia was over, Tiffany and Steven were over as well. Patricia asked me why I was dressed so nice. I told her I was ( Read more... )

Given Dreams Ridden With Pain ( Read more... )

Many a nights I lie awake and I will try so hard not to think about the pain I went through. However, I cannot seem to drown out the image I have of you two. It hurt me so much that someone came before my love that I had for you. Someone gave you love that he didn’t wait to gave you. I could have never given you what he did because if I did…. This ( Read more... )

Well I know I haven't updated in a while... and all my updates before this are all depressing, But I have been having a great time ( Read more... )

Yesterday Patricia and me went to the Pismo beach. It felt good to get out, just the two of us and enojoy each others love alone... without Tiffany or who ever to get in the way. it was really nice and warm at the beach. The sunset was really lovely with Patricia in it. We kissed in the sunset and then we went home. It felt so good to forget ( even ( Read more... )

My first kiss was on jan 19th ( Read more... )

That feeing... that feeling of pain and hurt and betrayal that sits like a stone on your mind and heart and won't go away... that is my feeling right now. I feel saddened that I made someone else depressed that I love. When someone loves you and they hurt you they leave a scar that lingers there and reminds you that the past pain is real. Today I ( Read more... )

Today maybe two hearts have come together and healed, even if it is just a little bit or a lot, they have come together. I asked out patricia yesterday. We are now dating. I told her that I was planing on asking her out on April 23rd since thats when we first met. I thought till then I will heal. But I realized something. the more I make her wait ( Read more... )

You promise that you'll be there for me when I need someone, but you left when I needed someone to talk to. Since no one is here to keep me from myself. I'll cut into myself more ways then one. ( I am not talking about cutting into my flesh.)

On New Years eve.... I'll finsih this crap later lol. I held nahs with patricia. I am so happy.