It's not fair when you say i didn't try. I just don't want to here it anymore. I swear i never meant to let it die. I just don't care about you anymore. I just fought the side of a popeyes, it lost. What the fuck is wrong with me! Why do i crave a cig so bad i'm going crazy? I'm so tired, my hands are numb... I like it. I don't want to be a ( Read more... )

i'm depressed.

I think I'm just going to kill myself, that would make this a whole lot easier ( Read more... )

So I just had this really weird dream. Here goes what I can remember ( Read more... )

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I remember a time when i wanted nothing more than to eat alone, but as i sit here... Alone in the walmart parking lot i find that what i truly want is someone to want to eat with me. I've always hated eating in front of others, it always made of feel so fat. It didn't matter if they ate the table and i nibbled on bread, i felt there eyes on me in ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting here at walmart and of course i'm thinking about back when i lived in sugar land. As well as when i'd visit, staying over at kristen's but hardly even being... all the things i used to while she was just waiting for me to come back. i realize i should have just stayed home with her but i just wanted to be alone you know. i'm cutting ( Read more... )

I'm thinking and that's not good for me.

So I just woke up, it's 551 AM and I'm writing the first things that come into my head while I'm typing with my eyes closed, seriously. They're closed. Anywho, last night I had a very interesting conversation with an old friend that I haven't really had a long talk with and it was......depressing. She kept hinting at that the fact that I might be ( Read more... )

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