Clean slate

[deirdre_c]

Whelp, my whole post-every-day plan in January truly backfired in a spectacular way. It turns out, once I missed a few days, I got trapped in this vicious cycle of guilt and paralysis and inability to catch up and more guilt over not posting until, even once February hit, I found myself miserable and ashamed and completely unable to LJ

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[de_nugis]

I spend most of my life in those shame-guilt-paralysis cycles about one thing or another.

Rest assured that it makes us happy just to see you around and there should be NO SHAME!

[deirdre_c]

Heh. I'm so sorry to hear that this is your natural state! It's not typically mine, so when I fall into a funk, I'm pitiful at figuring out effective means of dealing with it.

However, I spent a few days last week rallying with a group of friends to help a buddy of ours (who's having an epically tough time… tough LIFE) move out of her house. And it made me think about both how utterly grateful I am for how easy my own life is and also grateful for the supportive community of friends I belong to. And then that turned me to thinking about how I'd been drifting from this community of friends, and not wanting that to happen. ♥

[zubeneschamali]

I got trapped in this vicious cycle of guilt and paralysis and inability to catch up and more guilt over not posting

It's so good to know I'm not the only one. Especially since answering your prompt is where I left off on my "weekly" posting. /o\

[deirdre_c]

It's a slippery slope to just curling up on the couch and disengaging. I WILL NOT FALL PREY ANY LONGER. *determined*

[dreamlittleyo]

Re 4) I LOVE YOU TOO BB. *snuggles forever* I'm sorry January backfired on you. February will TOTALLY be better. For real.

[deirdre_c]

It's already better because I'M TALKING TO YOU!!

How is your new Tron epic fic going? I see you posting bits of it, and it makes me smile to know you're writing. :)))

[dreamlittleyo]

Awww *clings*

Tron epic is going quite well. Actually, I have gotten even more neurotic about WIP's, so technically it is entirely written. *hides* I now almost never start posting chapters of things until I have a completed draft. (In fact, I actually wrote a couple more fics unofficially for the same charity event, and I have not even started editing those to post yet *headdesk*).

I'm totally going to participate in oxoniensis's porn battle, though. Best tradition ever. Have you looked at any of the prompts? I've got a super rough draft of some John/Jo shenanigans, and I've just started another thing off a prompt for "The Musketeers" (because three episodes in and I am done for).

Tell me about you, bb! January aside (or included), how are things?

*hugs*

[deirdre_c]

Ah, I cannot fault you on the "completed" WIP issue. I don't think I would have the guts to start posting a story I didn't already have the ending for either!!

I don't usually do porn battle, but I should probably wander over there just to see if any of the prompts lights me up. I'm trying to write two different long fic right now (spn_meanttobe and Big Bang), so I'm trying to be disciplined and chip away at those whenever I have writing time.

Other things are going well, real life wise. I love my students for this term, and the research program I head has gotten so smooth-running that it doesn't cause me nearly the stress it did even a year ago. The big thing I'm worried about now is a kid heading for college in the fall (MEEP!!) both financially (ouch!), but also emotionally I am so NOT ready for him to leave us (*weeps motherly tears*). I know that's pretty far out of your own sphere, but, believe me, parenting makes you very fragile at times! :P

[tsuki_no_bara]

i love fab-feb-friends! and you, also. :D

[deirdre_c]

Yay! This time of year is so full of love. ♥_♥

[cherie_morte]

I have missed you around on twitter and LJ because you are my favorrrrite!

[deirdre_c]

I have been hiding under a rock. Trying to force myself to peek out and see if the coast is clear. :P

[cherie_morte]

*puts out tiny offering of cheese and waits for you to come out*

[deirdre_c]

*nibbles on your toes instead*