I want ...to break out of this, to be something different. I want a secret life that no one knows about, and I can't even explain why. Maybe I'm just tired of being boring old me. I hate the thought that I've become predictable, I hate the thought that maybe I don't go any deeper than this, I hate the thought that this might be all there is out ( Read more... )

defection

noun

An instance of defecting from or abandoning a cause: apostasy, recreance, recreancy, tergiversation. See approach/retreat, trust/distrust.