Kinda Sad

[dead_sexydexy]

Today would have marked 25 years of marriage for Eeyore and myself. I am sad even though I don't want him back. I am just sad that he refused to even try to join me in fixing our problems when I asked him to do so. I am sad that he felt an ultimatum that I promise to stay with him no matter what happened was the only term he would even begin to

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[mollytype]

Aw, man, that's rough. Though I had to laugh because I read that sentence a couple of times without getting it then read the following sentence where you felt it was ill written. You have every right to be sad. It is disappointing. You deserved better.

[dead_sexydexy]

I did. In the craziness that is today's world, I actually just had lunch with Eeyore and his girlfriend after Josh's high school graduation. Bless her heart. There was a lot of history at the "adult" table and while we tried to include her, I could tell she felt uncomfortable. She's too nice for him. I hope she realizes that soon. ;)

[bird_mom]

Anyone's who's been divorced has regrets if they have half a conscience. You do deserve better. So get the money part. Look at it this way; if you'd stayed you be in the boat I'm in wondering WHY the hell I stayed (other than for financial reasons). It's a useless soul sucking arrangement and every month when I realize I still can't live on my own it's another reason to comfort eat. You are coping and you are as free as you can be with kids. Hang in there and know your future is ahead of you. Don't look back.

[dead_sexydexy]

I try my best not to look back. This is rather morbid, but I also remind myself that my parents are worth a decent amount, aging rather quickly, and I know their wills have been weighted heavily in my favor because my brother makes more than enough being a brilliant Md/PhD to support his family in a style I only dream about. Lovely 4500 sq ft home in Lewisville, townhouse in Colorado, fishing Condo in Corpus Christi--unless that floated away in all the rains!

I've actually considered selling my house and offering to move in with them to help care for their special needs child once Jessica graduates from high school. Dunno if I can handle THAT much of his wife though. She's not the easiest person to get along with. ;)