its been so long since ive written in here, or anywhere actually. I mean I write but i never really feel like I mean it, its not a need anymore, it doesnt bite at me to write everything out, and when I do it all feels wrong, nothing I say sounds like me. it all sounds like this strange sort of fabrication of an old me, like im just trying to hold ( Read more... )

my lifes taken a strange turn ( Read more... )

i just broke up with my boyfriend.
he is completely insane.
oh my god.
ive never had some one freak out on me like that.
this was the worst night of my life.

im home.
im insane
its cold, 
ill see you all soon

I have a friend here, we dont know eachother  that well but whenever were together we always have a great time ( Read more... )

i just had the most horrible dream.
i took a nap in the middle of the day which i usually dont do, and i just woke up feeling so lost and sad.
Dreams of back home are the worst, I wake up thinking im there and when im not i get even more confused.
Everything was so warped though and disturbing, Its a feeling I just cant shake. 
I hate this.

i want a donut so bad.
they dont have them in this country.
gimme a fuckin donut!!

so usually i get very giddy for the holidays, sometimes christmas is kind of depressing but usually they are awesome ( Read more... )

I went to the mountains last weekend with my family here ( Read more... )

Im exhausted ( Read more... )