I know you may not understand how deeply stained my perception of trust is. But I do know that you understand the pain a man can cause to invoke a notion that due to his actions; no other man can be trusted. Like him you took my innocence. You were reckless with my soul. You raped my mind. A masquerade that instilled the most negative thing I ( Read more... )

this morning on the way to work.. ers.. damn ers played the blowers daughter. AND that both sides of love song. today was a tribute to willy nelson! why are they playing these songs!? I feel like I'm going crazy. My stomach has been all messed up. I haven't been able to sleep well. I just want peace. I have to put those cds away. I month ( Read more... )

TOMORROW NIGHT.. pulse.. going ghetto and reliving the old days. drinkin' in the parking lot.. ahh I can't wait to see what they've done to the place. (even those I've heard it's not much) I've been waiting to go since they reopened! It's just never worked out right. ha Go hang out with the kiddies.. 18+ scary thought.

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sunday morning ( Read more... )

This morning I was driving to work. All backroads; Covered in snow from the night prior, A very grey morning with a cold rain coming down. I thought I would throw my reckoning cd in. why? Who knows. But as usual.. it brought me to a place so familiar. I drifted in and out of thoughts that all carried the same theme. Kate. Kate.. Kait-Kate. ( Read more... )

Most of my close friends know about my cervix... and when I say that I really mean they know what my doctor thinks of it. So today, She's all up in there and we're talking and I told her what she said last time. She starts laughing and was like, "oh. I said that!?" then she goes, "well it is and if I had a poloroid camera I would take a picture ( Read more... )

just to write, I haven't written in so long. I know that sounds so cliche.. but it's really what I'm feeling. Life has just been so interesting these past few weeks (month and a half). Number 1, I moved. Number 2, I have a new job ( Read more... )

Let me bring you wine, I'm going crazy.
But it's crazy not to think about how crazy you make me.
I'm questoning everything I knew, I'm questioning my life away for you.
So look a littler further in me and maybe you'll see you,
maybe you'll see you.