i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel

she strikes a pose ; but dies inside,
she's such a pretty suicide <|3

and when you told me you loved me..
did you forget to say "just kidding " ?

Broken dreams and shattered hearts...
Yes. I can tell you were here.

She’s all alone again
wiping the tears from her eyes
somedays she feels like ( Read more... )

If you can honestly think that after all this time, then FUCK YOU.

I talked to kristin today and she thinks the same. I have other people supporting me now, that have BEEN THERE when I needed them most. People that believe me and have hope for me, and are dependable. So whatever, I don’t care anymore.

.....but it still hurts. It hurts a lot.

I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
family in crisis that only grows older...

i wanna cry..

:(

pretty hard weekend. After the day I had on Saturday, the auction was just about the last thing I wanted to do. I was sick and sad and tired and I really just wanted to sleep and not wake up for a few days. But anyway I barely got there in time. My voice was shitty, so I didn't do my solo. Actually, it wasn't AS bad as it was monday, but i was just ( Read more... )

WEll life is pretty...interesting? I guess so. My grandma died Thursday morning. The funeral is tomorrow morning. I have Anne's party tonight, and then we leave at 2am to fly to florida. And then The funeral is at 10 am, and after that we have to fly home again, because I have to be home saturday night for the choir auction, and my dad has a job. I ( Read more... )

I’ve had a really shitty week. I’ve been SOOO sick and it sucks. I’m going to the doctor tonight but it’s either strep throat again or bronchitis I think. I’ve had an  high fever the past 4 days. Y I have this really bad cough. All day today I’ve been coughing so hard its giving me migranes. It really sucks.

And today was sad.

I cant believe its ( Read more... )

250!!! YAY finally!!
I've been waiting a LONG time for that. *sigh* I miss last year.....

Anyways I just got back from peter pan. It was good, even though me and margaret were like in the VERY TOP row. so i could HARDLY see any of my friends. and yeah so I'm really sick. again. gosh it seems im always sick. I got the stomach flu in January, then a ( Read more... )

IM SIXTEEN!!!!

okay. yesterday..worst day ever. Well I don't have to go into the hospital yet. So that's the good news. but it was HORRIBLE! I gained a pound and a half. I was so upset.  It was so bad...and last night was a horrible night -and I was upset about that too So this on top of that was just way too much. When I saw the numbers on the scale I almost ( Read more... )

Make a list (1-10) and say what you really want to say to 10 different people, but you know you never will.
Keep it anonymous.
You might be one of these people... you never know.
You can ask if you are, but that doesn't mean I will tell you.

1. What is wrong with you? How self centered ARE you? Seriously do you even KNOW that there are other ( Read more... )