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i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel
she strikes a pose ; but dies inside,
she's such a pretty suicide <|3
and when you told me you loved me..
did you forget to say "just kidding " ?
Broken dreams and shattered hearts...
Yes. I can tell you were here.
She’s all alone again
wiping the tears from her eyes
somedays she feels like dying
she gets so sick of crying..
I wish my mom would have
told me the same things about
people as she did about scary movies;
its okay honey...
They’re all fake
She puts a gun to her head
hoping soon she'll be dead
To the floor she falls with a thud
into a puddle of her own blood
Can't you see she's falling apart?
Can't you see she's losing control?
Can't you see you broke her heart?
Can't you see she's no longer whole?
Can't you see?
I really shouldnt let this weigh me down because its not worth it. But its so depressing. This week...just all these bad things keep coming in loads. And that was a HUGE relationship that I lost. I should just not get close to people. Not trust people. Because every single person I have ever trusted for a long period of time has somehow broken that trust and I'm the one that gets hurt. I give up.
I go to the free clinic tomorrow. They want to see how I'm doing. Its been 2 more months and I'm doing worse. Its depressing. Well I'm doing a LITTLE better. The walks help me not to puke up my food at school, and I'm doing better by not cutting and going to her when i wanna cut at school ( like tuesday, i gave her my razor), but my physical health does not show any signs of getting better. I'm coughing up blood and my hair is falling out and im constantly weak and i dont know anymore.
If only i wasnt fat. then i wouldnt have these problems.
i need diet pills.