im pretty sure ive abandoned this LJ thing.
its soo last summer.
go to myspace& find me, if you give a damn.//

tried something new last night ( Read more... )

even the direct approach can be confusing.
now i have absolutely no idea where to go or what to do from here.//

clarity's a bitch.//

hurt.confused. still so unsure.
with the rules laid out things shoulda been simple,
but its hard to just drop all these unresolved feelings.
ive things have gone south, but still dont really know what that means,
or if it means anything.

i wish i didnt feel this way.//

warped tour today.
tried to be mean, tried to be angry,
and somehow realized stupid i was, & how big of a jerk i am sometimes, too.
made the most of a shitty situation,
and maybe even enjoyed being around someone i want so badly to hate.

came home to a disappointment.
i need to stop living in my stupid daydreams.//

starting a new job in the morning.
if you need any punk gear, im your man.//

well,
this certainly sucks.//

the most wonderful& unexpected morning,
then an evening wrought with stress& too much thinking.

still not sure whats going on,
unsure what it meant this morning,
confused.//

ok, so things arent exaclty perfect,
but im pretty sure its looking up.

slow&steady.
(slow, then steady).//