what am i going to get Amanda?!?!?!

I haven't posted here in awhile.. but I'm finally happy, my life is still not in order but I feel loved.. I talked to Martin today and if you don't know the whole story.. its twisted and sad but me and Martin work. There is no other way to explain it.. he makes me happy. I can't stop thinking about him or what i should ask him next.. i get to ( Read more... )

poor me.. .. i feel like such a wuss.. i got nothing left.. all i have is this ring

I hate today, I hate work, I hate not knowing..

The things i put myself through ( Read more... )

I'm not doing well at all.. please call me tonight if you want to hang out.. i could use the company.
I feel hopeless.. im crying at work i want to go home.. I'll be on aim deadlyr0se86.

Another Day at Horton A ( Read more... )

You temporarily pacify the void..
loss of contact kills my being
drag me into the abyss
separate me from this body of destruction.

"That smile on your face is all the proof i need to see that you are miserable your 'happiness' is little more than the set-up for an old yet hideously cruel, joke: the punchline being your inevitable, pathetic realization that you've wasted so much of your time thinking that somebody could actually 'Love' you ( Read more... )

found Chance flirting with 12 year olds in a Myspace chat..
How low can you go?

Damn, I want young love again.. it was so cute, but this time I know its only that ( Read more... )