I WANT TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS!!!!!

[dark_paradise2]

I HAVEN'T REALLY GOTTEN A DESCENT BREAK IN 2 FUCKING WEEKS!!! MY WEEKENDS HAVE BEEN WASTED AWAY SLAVING AT HOMEWORK AND I HAVE GONE ANYWHERE!!! I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO RELAX AND I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR DAYS FOR THESE FUCKING PILLS BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE MY ONLY HOPE!!! I'M SO FUCKING TIRED!!!! MY AUNT VISITED THIS PAST WEEKEND AND EVERYONE ELSE

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[rue42]

Your gran is highly immature. Your mom should be taking better care of you. Your dad has serious issues.

Your brother just loves you. He only wants to talk to you because he idolizes you. Try not to take it out on him.

It'll get better, I promise. I felt like you feel so often growing up and I don't want you to end up getting desperate and making the mistake of attemping suicide like I did. As soon as I got out of the house it was so much easier...just go to college and live your life for awhile, get away from everyone. If you absolutely have to, a GED is an option. It's not worth all this pain and anger to please anyone. Please yourself.

[dark_paradise2]

I know my mom is trying her hardest to take care of me, but she's not very happy herself so it makes things (for lack of a better word) difficult

[rue42]

You won't always be. I know I'm a broken record...

Pleasing yourself is a very hard thing to do if you're a good person, because bad people do it by running over others and being so selfish they don't care. Good people have a hard time justifying it, but it's important. I read, do yoga, go to shows...it makes me happy. And I tell myself I am beautiful just the way I am, and really TRY to believe it.

[dark_paradise2]

I agree. Try to be nice to people = getting walked all over. I should go back to my guilty pleasure: reading manga like a dork. I really need to work on telling myself I'm beautiful. I mean, I've tried and it hasn't really worked.