Got an e-mail at 3:00am today it said I joined LJ 23 years ago... wow it also wouldn't surprise me if three in the morning was the time I registered... I was the 197799th person to sign up for this website.

Also got a text from an old college friend who is on tour and is in a town I used to live in. Sadly we didn't get to hang out because I no ( Read more... )

Last month saw far too much death. My uncle, my favorite uncle died. He lived in Germany and his kids live in Italy. Jaime's uncle died too... Got to go to that funeral since it was only a drive to Wisconsin with the whole family. My youngest cried at the end of that funeral when they pushed the casket by our row. He didn't cry when we went to view ( Read more... )

I walk in a world where I'm an alien
Every step moves me, I think
Darkness is in every direction
No night sky of stars and hopes

I sing in room where every note is flat
Every third is minor
Dominants embrace me
No root of staff to key

I have been taken far, wandering ever
Every place has left a mark but none show
Diaspora is a calling
No home to return to me

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Staring deeply into, is it a pool, is it a mirror, or could it be mercury.

Reflections that return bright but changed, altered in hue and timbre.

Hopes shine, dreams plead, the living ever fall into dead.

That day you will know, it will return and show itself to me.

Realizations that bring new paths, changed but true and plainer.

Faith stands, ( Read more... )

Where do you get understanding if all you do is make mistakes
When you move on and make different ones
Why do you make some again
Who do you think you are that you get another
What is the reason that keeps you going to where an answer is

Well over four years later I have decided to make another post... hi, you can see what my world has been all about in those previous four years by going to blog.myspace.com/dark_lard

who knows i might even post here in another 4 years....

So, I think in life I am a new person, things have changed so freakin' dramatically that I'm not even sure how much of the same person I am, or was. Now the core of me is still there and I am who I am. But my outlook on life is entirely different. well maybe not entirely. ah hell I don't even know what I'm talking about ( Read more... )

Well, I spent 61.50 last night to go see the matrix revolutions, FUCKING BITCH it would have been worth that if it was opening night or something but fuck man... Anyhow the reason it was so fucking expensive was because I had to go by myself. I was going to see it opening night but something happened I don't remember what... Then it wasn't playing ( Read more... )

So, life is the best and worst that it could probably get. I'm in Canada and that's accually pretty cool, mostly because I'm only visiting... hehe canadia. Well things back home aren't really too great, I just havn't been talking to people that I want to talk with. I don't think I'm going to use my cell fone at all here in canada, I already have a ( Read more... )

Hey guys here in lies what should be my tour schedule for D.O.I. I leave Wednesday the 25'th hopefully I'll get to see you all and say goodbye if not, call my house get my cell fone number and call me up ( Read more... )