I have started reading a book called "Idlewild" I personally identify with every character as they seem to be a fraction of my Psyche, but each individual is an exaserbation of that fraction they live their lives as they know how but make mistake the book is stabilizing my thought process and my erratic behavior, even though there are some things ( Read more... )

my family has alot of pent up aggression and deppression. My dad is a registered sex offender and a former clan member as well with most of my folks, i am truely a black sheep it is all so clear. A life time of sexual,physical,mental and emotional abuse has tought me many things. I am affraid of letting what happened with me and kristy happen with ( Read more... )

i am wrestling with wanting to drink but am not i had my first clove tonight i like them they are smoother then cigs which hurt my chest real bad. I am no longer as depressed as i used to be actually i am real happy i just miss Devon ALOT! I am also working out now and am eating i have gained weight which is a plus. I have lost the ability to cry i ( Read more... )

last night i drank heavily for the first time in years. alchol is a cruel whore. i hate school, i hate living the only time it stops is when i am around Devon. I find myself wanting yet not wanting to be alone. i rarely sleep, i am insanely close to loosing all sense of reality. maybe i should have stayed in Lanterman. its her birthday i bought her ( Read more... )

YES within like 2 to three weeks there is going to be hopefully a massive bonfire at hunington beach. please everybody do come. Bring things from past relationships that you just need to get rid of,bring things that you hate like horrid presents your folks got you, bring things like badly knitted sweaters from you Aunt Agnis or something you know ( Read more... )

saw people i needed to see, did things i needed to do, had fun, still recouping, need sleep love all yruuers

I NEED A RIDE TOMORROW TO SAMS PARTY! GIVE ME A CALL MY NUMBER IS (909) 861-5935
NOTICE I WILL GIVE GAS MONEY! ALSO SHANNON WILSON WOULD LIKE TO COME!

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i felt the mist on my face this morning after i was released and it felt better then anything, i can feel the wind on my face, i need to go to Ireland and run through the moors and meadows and feel the green grass beneath my fingers i am out of place, i am a celt through and through i need to be free so badly. i feel like a hawk with a broken wing ( Read more... )

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