Fic - You've got mail, Chapter One. Jsquared.
Title: You've got mail 1/?
Author: dare_to_dream06
Rating: PG-13 for this part NC-17 overall.
Word Count: 2069
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warnings: a smidge of angst from both our boys. uh, sex. lots of sex. (none in this part though, sorry) :)
Summary: Jared and Jensen have been best friends since the show started filming. But they've both been keeping secrets from each other. When Jensen can't take it anymore, he finally tells Jared his secret, over the internet. Jared doesn't know what to do, was it all just some stupid joke?
Authors Notes: Okay I know you guys are all totally EXCITED about season three starting TONIGHT, as am I. I've been *dancing* and *flailing* about all day, in such a good mood. I just CAN'T WAIT.
I was writing my multi-chapter fic this morning and thought, what better day to post the first chapter then TODAY! So here I am. This is a WIP, BUT it's mostly done. I'm currently finished writing up to and including chapter four, this may end at chapter 6 unless I decide I want to add a little more angst or sex or angsty sex to the situation. Who knows. Anyways. I hope you guys enjoy.
ps. comments make a write faster. *showers you with cookies*
Chapter One
Jared sits down to his desk and logs on to his computer. When the welcome screen comes up, there's a little blue envelope in the right hand corner with a number two written on it, informing him that he has two new messages. He clicks on the link to open his inbox.
When he sees who they're from he chuckles and clicks on the first link.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
Nine o'clock. My place. Bring beer.
Jared rolls his eyes, typical Jensen he thinks. Jared had just seen him half an hour before and instead of telling him then, Jensen had sent an email as soon as he'd gotten home. Before Jared replies to the first email he goes back to read the second one.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
and chips.
Jared shakes his head, smiles and hits the reply button.
To: j.ackles3@smail.net
From: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
Moron, I have a phone you know.
Jay
Then he hits send.
A few minutes later he gets a reply.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
Don’t question my methods, assmunch.
Jared laughs out loud at that but doesn’t reply, just glances at his watch 8:54 and decides he better get going before Jensen starts sending him threatening emails or something.
----
When he gets to Jensen’s place he doesn’t even knock, neither of them do the knocking thing anymore because if they really wanted privacy or whatever they’d just lock the door. He goes in, puts the beer in the fridge and lays the bags of chips on Jensen’s kitchen table. He can faintly hear Jensen rummaging around in the living room area and goes to check out what he’s doing.
“Jen?” Jared calls as he’s entering the living room. Only to find Jensen sitting on the floor in front of his television digging through the entertainment centre. “What are you doing?”
“Oh. Hey Jay. Just uh...” Jensen reaches his arm into the back of a shelf and pokes his tongue out of the corner of his mouth, a gesture Jared is all too familiar with as Jensen’s concentration face. It’s cute. “I’m just trying to find that... movie... I dropped back here. Aha!” Jensen pulls his hand out to reveal the lost treasure. “Got it.”
The grin Jensen sends his way, is bright enough to light up the entire living room and Jared can’t help but smile a blinding grin of his own in return.
---
The movie had turned out to be one of Jared’s favourites, Die Hard. Jensen does that a lot. He’ll ask Jared over and he’ll have a movie all set up and ready to go, which will just happen to be one of Jared’s favourites. Jared thinks he does it on purpose to make Jared happy and the little gesture makes him smile every time Jensen does. They pop popcorn and drink beer, laugh and kid around with each other the rest of the night. It’s lazy and comfortable like always and Jared feels more attached to Jensen then he has in a long time. But it’s getting late and even though they ended their shoot early today and tomorrow’s a Sunday, Jared decides that it’s about time he head home to get some rest.
Jensen offers Jared the guest bedroom as always and Jared would have took it if it wasn’t for the fact that his dogs were at his apartment alone and they needed to be fed and put out first thing in the morning.
So Jared slips on his coat and heads home.
When he gets there he grabs a bottle of water from the fridge and heads down the hall to his room to slip into a pair of comfy sweats. When he’s dressed he pads to the kitchen, fills the dog bowls with food and water, so they won’t be bothering him too early in the morning and heads into the living room. He’s not as tired as he was at Jensen’s because of the cool Vancouver air and TV always makes him drowsy. A few minutes after he sits down on his couch, his computer gives off an alert noise, the kind that sounds when you’ve just received an email. He must have forgotten to turn off the speakers before he left.
Jared had planned to just ignore it, but... after a few minutes he gets up and sits down at his desk. He opens his inbox and smiles. Jensen. The email is from Jensen. Jared clicks on the link, scrolls down to read the message, a slight grin tipping up the corners of his mouth.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
You left your chips here
After reading Jensen’s reply, Jared has a feeling that Jensen didn’t send him an email just to tell him that very unimportant bit of information, so he hits reply.
To: j.ackles3@smail.net
From: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
I always leave my chips there. Is there anything else you wanted to tell me while I’m up or is that it? Loser =)
Jay
He plays a game of tetris while he waits for Jensen’s reply. He doesn’t get past the first level before the little mail box pops up again.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles@smail.com
Maybe... IM me.
Jared quirks an eyebrow at Jensen’s reply but logs on his IM anyways. He waits all of three seconds before a message pops up from Jensen.
Paddywacked says:
Hey
Jared laughs at Jensen’s IM name but doesn’t ask about it, even though he kinda wonders what it’s suppose to mean.
J.Tpad says:
miss me already jen =P
Paddywacked says:
...
J.Tpad says:
what’s that s’pose to mean?
Paddywacked says:
I donno.
J.Tpad says:
u have to know, you r the 1 who sent the msg. Asshat.
Paddywacked says:
Meh.
J.Tpad says:
oh kaaay. so u sent me that email & said ‘maybe’ what did u wanna tell me?
Paddywacked says:
Maybe, I just wanted 2 talk 2 u.
J.Tpad says:
talk to me? i was just over there. Ur gonna see me 2morrow.
Paddywacked says:
maybe I...
J.Tpad says:
maybe u?
Jared’s heart is beating in his chest. He thinks for a moment that it’s just his imagination and that Jensen is just fucking with him. He’s more then confused with the way Jensen’s been acting today.
And yesterday.
And all week, now that Jared thinks about it.
The email’s are normal though. Jensen does that every now and then instead of calling Jared. They joke and poke fun at each other, nothing really serious. They haven’t IMed each other much though, Jared hardly ever uses his Instant Messenger. Now that he and Sandy aren’t together anymore, he doesn’t really have a use for it.
But way back, at the beginning of their friendship, when the show had first started filming, Jared and Jensen were chilling out at Jared’s place right before their first vacation, which would last two weeks.
Jensen had asked Jared what he would be doing and Jared told him about his plans to go home for a while and just relax. Jensen had been quite for a while after that and then randomly asked Jared if he used IM or anything. Jared had said he talked to Sandy all the time on IM and that he’d never really had a use for it otherwise. Jensen told Jared that it would be an awesome way for them to talk to each other and see how things were going on their break. So he added Jensen’s email to his contacts list.
They ended up talking a lot over the internet for the first few days until Jared got drunk and told Jensen that he missed him and he thought he was pretty, really pretty. And Jared admits, yeah that’s the truth, he does think Jensen is pretty but just thinking it didn’t mean anything. It’s not like Jared was gay . Guys get crushes on guys all the- wait, that’s not what he meant! No, not crushing on Jensen, nope. He just thinks he’s pretty, that’s all. Just pretty.
Anyway, when Jared had woken up and went to check his email, there had been a letter there from Jensen and he remembered what an ass he’d made of himself. So he stopped getting online for the remainder of his vacation.
When he’d gotten back to Vancouver Jensen hadn’t mentioned it and Jared never brought it up. Nothing had been weird between them. Everything went back to normal after that.
A few months into filming, Jared had come to terms with his feelings for Jensen and the fact that he could never show exactly what he was feeling at any given time. He had to be careful around Jensen, who was steadily becoming his best friend and he had to make sure all the jokes were always of friendly nature. As they became closer things worked out better. Jared started to fall for Jensen even more, but still didn’t let things show. Jensen had never really shown Jared any interest that way, so Jared always told himself Jensen was off limits.
Lately though Jared had caught Jensen looking at him and when Jared caught him, he’d look away flushed and embarrassed. Maybe that was just Jared’s imagination, wishful thinking even. But he knows for sure the way Jensen’s been acting, aside from the looks, this week was not his imagination. Jensen isn’t his usual self. Which takes us back to the conversation at hand.
Paddywacked says:
Maybe I couldn’t wait ‘til 2morrow.
J.Tpad says:
jensen, what’s this about?
Paddywacked says:
u think u’d have a clue from the name, jay.
Jared thinks about that for a second Paddywacked. No. Jensen could... no way. This is totally a joke. Jensen doesn’t have a crush on him. That’s ridiculous. Right? He’s not going to jump to conclusions and get his hopes up, this is all just some stupid joke.
J.Tpad says:
jen? I don’t understand.
Paddywacked says:
I want u, jay.
Paddywacked says:
I donno how 2 explain it any more then that.
J.Tpad says:
u can’t b serious. I mean, if this is some joke, jen. i swear!
Paddywacked says:
No. Jesus. No joke. Jay, I wouldn’t joke ‘bout something like that.
J.T pad says:
well if it ain’t a joke y didn’t u just tell me in person?
Paddywacked says:
How was I suppose to tell u? I mean, it’s not like everyday ur MALE co-star and best friend tells u something like that.
Jared’s looking at the screen, mouth wide open in shock. Did Jensen just admit that he wanted Jared, like actually wanted him? Did he read that right? He rubs his eyes and reads the message over again. Yeah, that’s exactly what it says.
God. He’s so tired. He can’t function like this, and with all these feelings conflicting. He thought that he wanted Jensen -No, he knows he wants Jensen- though he’s never said it out loud. But now that Jensen’s said that he wants Jared back, he’s instantly nervous. What if Jensen doesn’t want to be with him but just friends with benefits? Just wants him for sex? Fuck buddies, if you will. Jared’s never been with another man before. He’s never even thought about one the way he thinks about Jensen. Which makes everything that much harder to deal with. And over the internet! Jesus, what a way to deal with this type of situation. What is he suppose to do now?
When Jensen’s screen name pops up with another message Jared clicks back into reality. He can’t talk to Jensen right now or he might say something stupid. He can’t answer the unspoken question that Jensen is expecting him to answer, not now. He does the only thing he can do that makes sense to him at that moment.
Paddywacked says:
Jay?
J.Tpad says:
listen, it’s late. can we talk about this 2morrow, in person?
Paddywacked says:
Yeah, okay. Just... nevermind.
Paddywacked says:
I’m sorry
Jared reads Jensen’s last message. Sorry? He’s not quite sure why Jensen’s sorry but before he can reassure Jensen that they’re still okay...
*Paddwacked has just signed out*
NEXT PART
Author: dare_to_dream06
Rating: PG-13 for this part NC-17 overall.
Word Count: 2069
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warnings: a smidge of angst from both our boys. uh, sex. lots of sex. (none in this part though, sorry) :)
Summary: Jared and Jensen have been best friends since the show started filming. But they've both been keeping secrets from each other. When Jensen can't take it anymore, he finally tells Jared his secret, over the internet. Jared doesn't know what to do, was it all just some stupid joke?
Authors Notes: Okay I know you guys are all totally EXCITED about season three starting TONIGHT, as am I. I've been *dancing* and *flailing* about all day, in such a good mood. I just CAN'T WAIT.
I was writing my multi-chapter fic this morning and thought, what better day to post the first chapter then TODAY! So here I am. This is a WIP, BUT it's mostly done. I'm currently finished writing up to and including chapter four, this may end at chapter 6 unless I decide I want to add a little more angst or sex or angsty sex to the situation. Who knows. Anyways. I hope you guys enjoy.
ps. comments make a write faster. *showers you with cookies*
Chapter One
Jared sits down to his desk and logs on to his computer. When the welcome screen comes up, there's a little blue envelope in the right hand corner with a number two written on it, informing him that he has two new messages. He clicks on the link to open his inbox.
When he sees who they're from he chuckles and clicks on the first link.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
Nine o'clock. My place. Bring beer.
Jared rolls his eyes, typical Jensen he thinks. Jared had just seen him half an hour before and instead of telling him then, Jensen had sent an email as soon as he'd gotten home. Before Jared replies to the first email he goes back to read the second one.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
and chips.
Jared shakes his head, smiles and hits the reply button.
To: j.ackles3@smail.net
From: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
Moron, I have a phone you know.
Jay
Then he hits send.
A few minutes later he gets a reply.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
Don’t question my methods, assmunch.
Jared laughs out loud at that but doesn’t reply, just glances at his watch 8:54 and decides he better get going before Jensen starts sending him threatening emails or something.
----
When he gets to Jensen’s place he doesn’t even knock, neither of them do the knocking thing anymore because if they really wanted privacy or whatever they’d just lock the door. He goes in, puts the beer in the fridge and lays the bags of chips on Jensen’s kitchen table. He can faintly hear Jensen rummaging around in the living room area and goes to check out what he’s doing.
“Jen?” Jared calls as he’s entering the living room. Only to find Jensen sitting on the floor in front of his television digging through the entertainment centre. “What are you doing?”
“Oh. Hey Jay. Just uh...” Jensen reaches his arm into the back of a shelf and pokes his tongue out of the corner of his mouth, a gesture Jared is all too familiar with as Jensen’s concentration face. It’s cute. “I’m just trying to find that... movie... I dropped back here. Aha!” Jensen pulls his hand out to reveal the lost treasure. “Got it.”
The grin Jensen sends his way, is bright enough to light up the entire living room and Jared can’t help but smile a blinding grin of his own in return.
---
The movie had turned out to be one of Jared’s favourites, Die Hard. Jensen does that a lot. He’ll ask Jared over and he’ll have a movie all set up and ready to go, which will just happen to be one of Jared’s favourites. Jared thinks he does it on purpose to make Jared happy and the little gesture makes him smile every time Jensen does. They pop popcorn and drink beer, laugh and kid around with each other the rest of the night. It’s lazy and comfortable like always and Jared feels more attached to Jensen then he has in a long time. But it’s getting late and even though they ended their shoot early today and tomorrow’s a Sunday, Jared decides that it’s about time he head home to get some rest.
Jensen offers Jared the guest bedroom as always and Jared would have took it if it wasn’t for the fact that his dogs were at his apartment alone and they needed to be fed and put out first thing in the morning.
So Jared slips on his coat and heads home.
When he gets there he grabs a bottle of water from the fridge and heads down the hall to his room to slip into a pair of comfy sweats. When he’s dressed he pads to the kitchen, fills the dog bowls with food and water, so they won’t be bothering him too early in the morning and heads into the living room. He’s not as tired as he was at Jensen’s because of the cool Vancouver air and TV always makes him drowsy. A few minutes after he sits down on his couch, his computer gives off an alert noise, the kind that sounds when you’ve just received an email. He must have forgotten to turn off the speakers before he left.
Jared had planned to just ignore it, but... after a few minutes he gets up and sits down at his desk. He opens his inbox and smiles. Jensen. The email is from Jensen. Jared clicks on the link, scrolls down to read the message, a slight grin tipping up the corners of his mouth.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles3@smail.net
You left your chips here
After reading Jensen’s reply, Jared has a feeling that Jensen didn’t send him an email just to tell him that very unimportant bit of information, so he hits reply.
To: j.ackles3@smail.net
From: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
I always leave my chips there. Is there anything else you wanted to tell me while I’m up or is that it? Loser =)
Jay
He plays a game of tetris while he waits for Jensen’s reply. He doesn’t get past the first level before the little mail box pops up again.
To: Jay_pad8@goomail.com
From: j.ackles@smail.com
Maybe... IM me.
Jared quirks an eyebrow at Jensen’s reply but logs on his IM anyways. He waits all of three seconds before a message pops up from Jensen.
Paddywacked says:
Hey
Jared laughs at Jensen’s IM name but doesn’t ask about it, even though he kinda wonders what it’s suppose to mean.
J.Tpad says:
miss me already jen =P
Paddywacked says:
...
J.Tpad says:
what’s that s’pose to mean?
Paddywacked says:
I donno.
J.Tpad says:
u have to know, you r the 1 who sent the msg. Asshat.
Paddywacked says:
Meh.
J.Tpad says:
oh kaaay. so u sent me that email & said ‘maybe’ what did u wanna tell me?
Paddywacked says:
Maybe, I just wanted 2 talk 2 u.
J.Tpad says:
talk to me? i was just over there. Ur gonna see me 2morrow.
Paddywacked says:
maybe I...
J.Tpad says:
maybe u?
Jared’s heart is beating in his chest. He thinks for a moment that it’s just his imagination and that Jensen is just fucking with him. He’s more then confused with the way Jensen’s been acting today.
And yesterday.
And all week, now that Jared thinks about it.
The email’s are normal though. Jensen does that every now and then instead of calling Jared. They joke and poke fun at each other, nothing really serious. They haven’t IMed each other much though, Jared hardly ever uses his Instant Messenger. Now that he and Sandy aren’t together anymore, he doesn’t really have a use for it.
But way back, at the beginning of their friendship, when the show had first started filming, Jared and Jensen were chilling out at Jared’s place right before their first vacation, which would last two weeks.
Jensen had asked Jared what he would be doing and Jared told him about his plans to go home for a while and just relax. Jensen had been quite for a while after that and then randomly asked Jared if he used IM or anything. Jared had said he talked to Sandy all the time on IM and that he’d never really had a use for it otherwise. Jensen told Jared that it would be an awesome way for them to talk to each other and see how things were going on their break. So he added Jensen’s email to his contacts list.
They ended up talking a lot over the internet for the first few days until Jared got drunk and told Jensen that he missed him and he thought he was pretty, really pretty. And Jared admits, yeah that’s the truth, he does think Jensen is pretty but just thinking it didn’t mean anything. It’s not like Jared was gay . Guys get crushes on guys all the- wait, that’s not what he meant! No, not crushing on Jensen, nope. He just thinks he’s pretty, that’s all. Just pretty.
Anyway, when Jared had woken up and went to check his email, there had been a letter there from Jensen and he remembered what an ass he’d made of himself. So he stopped getting online for the remainder of his vacation.
When he’d gotten back to Vancouver Jensen hadn’t mentioned it and Jared never brought it up. Nothing had been weird between them. Everything went back to normal after that.
A few months into filming, Jared had come to terms with his feelings for Jensen and the fact that he could never show exactly what he was feeling at any given time. He had to be careful around Jensen, who was steadily becoming his best friend and he had to make sure all the jokes were always of friendly nature. As they became closer things worked out better. Jared started to fall for Jensen even more, but still didn’t let things show. Jensen had never really shown Jared any interest that way, so Jared always told himself Jensen was off limits.
Lately though Jared had caught Jensen looking at him and when Jared caught him, he’d look away flushed and embarrassed. Maybe that was just Jared’s imagination, wishful thinking even. But he knows for sure the way Jensen’s been acting, aside from the looks, this week was not his imagination. Jensen isn’t his usual self. Which takes us back to the conversation at hand.
Paddywacked says:
Maybe I couldn’t wait ‘til 2morrow.
J.Tpad says:
jensen, what’s this about?
Paddywacked says:
u think u’d have a clue from the name, jay.
Jared thinks about that for a second Paddywacked. No. Jensen could... no way. This is totally a joke. Jensen doesn’t have a crush on him. That’s ridiculous. Right? He’s not going to jump to conclusions and get his hopes up, this is all just some stupid joke.
J.Tpad says:
jen? I don’t understand.
Paddywacked says:
I want u, jay.
Paddywacked says:
I donno how 2 explain it any more then that.
J.Tpad says:
u can’t b serious. I mean, if this is some joke, jen. i swear!
Paddywacked says:
No. Jesus. No joke. Jay, I wouldn’t joke ‘bout something like that.
J.T pad says:
well if it ain’t a joke y didn’t u just tell me in person?
Paddywacked says:
How was I suppose to tell u? I mean, it’s not like everyday ur MALE co-star and best friend tells u something like that.
Jared’s looking at the screen, mouth wide open in shock. Did Jensen just admit that he wanted Jared, like actually wanted him? Did he read that right? He rubs his eyes and reads the message over again. Yeah, that’s exactly what it says.
God. He’s so tired. He can’t function like this, and with all these feelings conflicting. He thought that he wanted Jensen -No, he knows he wants Jensen- though he’s never said it out loud. But now that Jensen’s said that he wants Jared back, he’s instantly nervous. What if Jensen doesn’t want to be with him but just friends with benefits? Just wants him for sex? Fuck buddies, if you will. Jared’s never been with another man before. He’s never even thought about one the way he thinks about Jensen. Which makes everything that much harder to deal with. And over the internet! Jesus, what a way to deal with this type of situation. What is he suppose to do now?
When Jensen’s screen name pops up with another message Jared clicks back into reality. He can’t talk to Jensen right now or he might say something stupid. He can’t answer the unspoken question that Jensen is expecting him to answer, not now. He does the only thing he can do that makes sense to him at that moment.
Paddywacked says:
Jay?
J.Tpad says:
listen, it’s late. can we talk about this 2morrow, in person?
Paddywacked says:
Yeah, okay. Just... nevermind.
Paddywacked says:
I’m sorry
Jared reads Jensen’s last message. Sorry? He’s not quite sure why Jensen’s sorry but before he can reassure Jensen that they’re still okay...
*Paddwacked has just signed out*
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