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[dancer_lani]

I'm torn. Oh so confused and overwhelmed and not sure. It's hard. I don't know what I want. I read Tarot cards the other day to try and help sort it all out, but then Danny got here and I got distracted. And then We talked about it for about an hour, sipping coffee in front of the fire at about 3AM, and I had a new option. One that felt right

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[chrestomatia]

I don't have words to try to articulate right now, but I want you to know that I'm thinking of you and wish you presence of mind and introspection. Since moving out, I haven't looked back. Even when rent and no health insurance and living with people is driving me up the wall, I don't regret it. I look back and think, "Why didn't I do this sooner?" but I also realize that I really wasn't ready before, that I couldn't have done this then. I admire the thought you're putting into it. Something I did for a month in 2006 and that my family talked about when we were trying to figure out how to make me less miserable at home was live with a family friend in a different city. Do you know anyone in Portland?

Ok, so I guess I did have words to articulate. Best of luck, dear.

[dancer_lani]

Thanks. it helps to have other points of view. At the moment, I'm leaning towards waiting a bit. Still thinking about things, getting all of it a bit straightened out in my head, talking about it a lot, and maybe spending a week or so at a time at my friend Danny's home. I also really like the idea of living with a family friend somewhere else... I may have to think about that too.

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