my life needs help.  I need to get everything back on track, wherever that is.  But soon, i have been procrastinating making decisions long enough... i need to do something about everything

Ok so I am listening to this song in my room, btw on my comp which is realllly slow. I don’t know what it reminds me of for once it doesn’t remind me of anything!! But I am thinking about MVT while listening because I am going to Pizza meet tonight!! Super excited, but I am kinda scared. I don’t know if I am scared of going there or if I am ( Read more... )

Still feel like crap and i still have a shit load of hw...but not as much as last night.  Considering i went to bed at 11:30 and couldnt fall asleep till 12 wasnt good and then my dad comes running in at 1:30 going do you need help iwth math?? i was like I NEED TO SLEEP!!!!! and then thats all i remember until rap came on my radio at 4:57.  I get ( Read more... )

ugh i am failing SCHOOL and my spanish teacher is the biggest bitch ever... she told me i could be in a group for this huge project with someone in a different class and then she told the other person that we shouldnt so now i have no group and i am totally screwed b/c i am already failing spanish i have a FUCKING D i got a D on my NSL test.  ( Read more... )

Here goes nothing

ok that saying, why do we say here goes nothing.  Really its like here goes everything...  wouldnt that make more sense??? w/e today here goes everything/nothing...

I dont know why i am so nervous!!!  i feel like throwing up.  Swimming makes me sooooo nervous!!  its drives me CRUHAZY!!  like i get in the wooorrrst mood before i ( Read more... )

Once again sorry for the kinda repeat kel and noana

Ok so its finallly friday and i must say i ammm sooooooo scared for tomorrow!!!  I need to do better!!  i need to drop 2 seconds in breaststroke!!  and i need to get my split in the 50 to see what i can do...:-/  not diving... kinda wish i was, but i dont have 4 dives soo w/e and i dont wanna ( Read more... )

ok cant be a long entry but i just wanted to say how much i feel like a druggie right now!!  i have my PJ's on, a white tank top curly frizzly hair, face is like sick looking, cuz i feel sick and has these freaking wierd ass cuts... and iof course to top it all off i have beccas orange druggie/homeless hat on!!  i then have a bottle of advil next ( Read more... )

ok cant be a long entry but i just wanted to say how much i feel like a druggie right now!!  i have my PJ's on, a white tank top curly frizzly hair, face is like sick looking, cuz i feel sick and has these freaking wierd ass cuts... and iof course to top it all off i have beccas orange druggie/homeless hat on!!  i then have a bottle of advil next ( Read more... )

Warning for noana and kel, this is a repeat kinda...

This week has either been the longest week of my life, or the fastest i cant decide!!  much much has happened!!  ok well i have madddd ADD ok so while i am writing this i am listening to i want a hippo for christmas, and i dont know whether to laugh or cry.  I feel like crap and this song reminds ( Read more... )

ok so a lot has happened this week, but i feel like crap and am scared for tomorrow!! i am so scared of failure in swimming its not even funny!!  i havent swam since this summer so i dont know what to expect.  I am diving for my first meet ever and i am sooo fucking scared... and btw i feel like crap!!!  ok im done, dont feel like writing really ( Read more... )