Another year goes by...and here I am in a posting mood.  Maybe I should try to post more often.  What has change, what is new?  Been working a job for over a year now.  Daily struggles yes, but surviving through each day.  Each day does get a bit easier, but the struggle continues day in and day out, stuck in the cycle, I feel.  Desperately ( Read more... )

According to my calculations it has been about 3+ years since a public entry has been posted and just under 2 years that an entry has been posted altogether.  Well, when I'm writing the most likely reason is that I'm either feeling down or going through some difficult times.  And yes it is a difficult time in my life right now, well at least in my ( Read more... )

Good evening World! Come on peoples! Don't nobody update their LJs no more?! I don't blame you, me neither. I just don't feel like it anymore. Well but now I'm back to write despite not feeling like it ( Read more... )

GOod Evening World!  Alright, I haven't done this in a while and this is not even taking sufficient time off to think about things, but here I go with this entry.  When I reflect on things that has happened to me in my life, I see that I am very fortunate to be where I am.  I have a good life right now.  Got a good thing going.  Sometimes I lost ( Read more... )

Good Evening World!  I haven't written in this thing for a long time.  Just figuring things out, getting things fixed and such.  I don't know.  I don't really know what to write anymore.  Life is life.  Work is work.  Everything has positives and negatives.  I just have to make the best of things.  As I'm progressing, I'm understand more and more ( Read more... )

Good evening World!

"I've never viewed myself as particularly talented. Where I excel is with a ridiculous, sickening work ethic. "While the other guy's sleeping, I'm working. While the other guy's eating, I'm working. While the other guy's making love, I mean, I'm making love, too, but I'm working really hard at it!"
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Good evening World!  Damn, it's been a while since I started an entry like thissssa.  hahah.  Holiday weekends just aren't holiday weekends if you don't spend it doing nothing.  I think it's time again for another redefining moment.  Time for big changes and lets see what will happen ( Read more... )

Hold up, time out.  Ohk, so I unfucked things and they are back to normal.  Big sigh of relief, yet still cloud over the head.  Takes time to recover back to normality.  Whew!

I can finally sleep better at night.

Hey, don't worry about me guys.  I think I'll be alright in the end.  I just have to repent for my mistake.  I have to face the wrongs that I've done.  No one is perfect, everyone make mistakes.  Some mistakes are worse than others.  All I can do is right my wrongs and hope that it never happens again.  I have to try, I can't run away, I won't run ( Read more... )

Still depressed, still scared, still unhappy, still coping with the situation, still hard to breathe.  This is hard.  Every morning I wake up for the past two weeks, it's just so hard to breathe and get myself ready for my day.  And even worse is that it's hard to go back and lay in bed and sleep in.  It's like I'm having morning anxiety attacks.  ( Read more... )