thoughts

[dakinigrl]

I'm beginning to feel as if the seams of the universe are splitting apart. If my father can disappear forever, my grandparents... can't anyone at any time just cease to exist? Yes. I could suddenly cease to exist. My daughter. Everyone I know. The world itself

Comments

[reveritas]

I know.

*hugs*

and yet it continues to go on.

[dakinigrl]

:::sigh::: it does indeed. even without anything to hold onto.

XOXO

[taste_is_sweet]

I don't know what to say, but I'm sorry that you're hurting right now.

[dakinigrl]

Thank you! <3

[ruthless1]

My father passed away in April. I think i know what you are talking about - it's the impermannce of everything. Here today, gone tomorrow and who will remember the very small things that make up a person's life? The little songs that maybe he only sang for me? Or for my siblings? He used to make up the silliest stories for us when we were little and now - if we forget those stories - who will every know them?
I always feel like grief is geographical - it's a place that we have to wander through for quite awhile until we are ready to be in new landscape. My father's passing made me feel really mortal - like I am next in line. Which is true but that day is not quite here yet.
I think I am holding onto the parts of him that I just adored - they will live on as long as I do. I don't know what else to say - we each navigate that sometimes treacherous landscape in our own way.

[dakinigrl]

I'm sorry to hear about your dad too Ruth. It's so good to hear someone else out there knows what I'm talking about here. I know it's something we all have to go through eventually. I wish I'd had that other 20 years that my mom got to have with her dad. Cheated. Yeah, me and my sisters carry part of him in us, my daughter does too. And he's out there in the universe, being the weather god. all all all