Brendon has no fucking clue what to say, because he loves Ryan too. And it isn't enough.
Oh, ouch. I've been there, and you've described that so well here, and it's beautiful and heartbreaking and painful, but in such a recognizable way... maybe it helps knowing that it gets better?
it's a good thing i like angst fics. this was so powerful. it hurts how much brendon knows he will give ryan what he wants all the time, because it's ryan. this hurt in the best way, great writing♥
this hurt so good, it is exactly what I needed right now. Please tell me there will be more? The masochist in me wants more of these little looks into ryan's self-destruction...
Glad someone else needed this, I sort of just want to wallow in misery. /o\ No more of this, but I'm working on a pretty big epic all about Ryan's self-destructive tendencies, oh boy. Thank you!
oh hot damn, hearing that has made my life. Can I have your phone number to call you every five minutes and ask how it's progressing? :P I kid, I kid. Love ryan, love epics, love the paaaaaain.
Ooh child you don't even know, I'm at almost 5k words already and I've already had to restructure the first chapter twice because there's so much I want to fit in. *____* It's like this whole exercise in torturing myself because it's all about their epic love spanning years. Whee! \o/
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Oh, ouch. I've been there, and you've described that so well here, and it's beautiful and heartbreaking and painful, but in such a recognizable way... maybe it helps knowing that it gets better?
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it's a good thing i like angst fics. this was so powerful. it hurts how much brendon knows he will give ryan what he wants all the time, because it's ryan. this hurt in the best way, great writing♥
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