My Ed has been going great. No one knows and I am loosing weight. But..................... There is something wrong. I cheated on my boyfriend with my x. I hate myself for that. But, I have questions about my current relationship. Do I need all the drama, that comes with mother hood, and an x wife? I mean he treats me like a princess but I am only ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do with my life. How do explain this emptiness I feel inside. How do I make you understand that I am not ok. That the simple things in life that once made me smile no longer have worth to me. I am emotionally exhausted, when I am not worrying about my mother or my brother I am wondering how to make them happy. I hate being me I ( Read more... )

it's been long time since i have been here.... lots of new informaion.. i'm ok with my mom now, although we do have the ocational fights but i guess that is very normal thing??? well if it's not then it's normal to me... got my car and paid it off.. school is going great no worries there except for the preasure of graduating which i don't see ( Read more... )

yesterday i was crying to myself in my room and i was yelling at my grandma for deying and leaving me here all alone. i told her that i need her because she was the only one who could ever understand me. she was the only one who got how i felt because her mother treated her the same way my mother was treating me. i hate the fact that i can't run to ( Read more... )

LIFE RIGHT NOW IS NOT SO GREAT, I FEEL SO EMOTIONALLY OVERWHELMED. I HATE THE FACT THAT AS SOON AS I START GETTING OVER GREG HE SEAMS TO FIND A WAY TO ENTER MY LIFE AGAIN. I WISH HE WOULD JUST lEAVE ME ALONE IF HE DOESN'T REALLY LIKE ME. WHY ARE SOME GUYS TOTAL ASSES? I KNOW THAT I'M OVER HIM BUT SOMETHING INSIDE ME WONDERS IF I'LL EVER MEET A ( Read more... )

my brother is fucking up again. itis getting to be too over whelming for me. i hate the fact that i have to be the strong one. my mom is alwyas counting on me to be there but it is too much preasure. i mean i love her and all but her son is getting out of hand, and she doesn't seem to see that she is contributing to his behavior. i wish she would ( Read more... )

it's been a while but i guess i neded to take a break. work is going a lot better than it was so it works out. greg called me for christmas and new years eve. so i guess i was kinda happy i din't get good presents this year but i gave awsome ones so i was happy.i don't mind but i need my sleep. oh well i guess i would rather talk to him everyday ( Read more... )

it hurts to know we don't know
it kills to not know we know
but what if whats known is not real
then are we left in the unkown?
i know to love i know wrong and right]
but what if my cocept of right and wrong is not yours?

i feel so shity cause it's been 5 days and greg still hasn't called why are guys like that? so i guess it is all over. IT WAS FUN WHILE IT LASTED. except that i kinda did like this guy. but life sux then you die. right? i can't help to think that i would love to find another guy just like him. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this. my heart is a ( Read more... )

i finally told my mom that i had tried to commit suicide a few years ago. and as always my brother started crying like a little girl. finally he realised how much his screw ups had affected me. it felt kinda weird admiting that i have had a realy bad problem and still sometimes i think that i would be better off dead. but what ever i don't care ( Read more... )