I want to break free (from your lies, you're so self-satisfied IDONTNEED YOU)

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Hey guys. Miss you all so much.

Haven't had any time to even THINK since Monday, and now it'll be another 2-3 weeks till I can, what with 2 AP tests, a music competition, an orchestra concert, and an SAT ii. Plus volunteer work and MAJOR STUDYING on the weekends.

I got my ACT score back yesterday and had a freaking melt down. I'm one point away from

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[corleoned]

I think you're smart to drop the idea of Brown University, babe, first off. I think you'll be happy at WU. It definitely sounds along your lines, especially if you get that special, at home feeling that you could actually live there. I think one thing you learn very quickly from going to schools is that if there's a place with a good feeling to it, you stick to it very quickly. Sometimes you have to give and take though with schools, and they may not tick all your boxes. But remember, "you can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you'll get what you need". ♥ Just because you may have to give and take on the 'hippie-ness' off it, if it ticks 99% of your boxes, I think it should completely be on your top priority list. <3

I wouldn't be sad in the least about it but I know I'd completely break him. So I can't

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I really love and appreciate all your advice, babe. :) Really, it's helped so much.

The college info was really great to hear, and I think you're absolutely right. Of course a college won't meet my needs 100%, but if it comes close, then I guess I should go for it. :D

As for the boyfriend thing, things are constantly on the move with that. I'll fill you in eventually (if I don't make another post) but even you just copy/pasting what I said kinda made me step back and think.

Only the situation is (was, I guess) very different what it seems you thought it was. It's just that he did a few things to me that were over-the-top and I was regretting my affection for him after that for a long while. But we patched things up yesterday and it was quite lovely. I finally got to know the guy XD Got to really talk at last, about deep things and who we are. It really helped.

Anyways *hugs forever* I really appreciate all your help bb <3 It's so good to get real advice. Miss you : /

[corleoned]

D'aww, happy to hear it XD Half the time I feel stupid about giving advice, so I'm happy that it helped XD And oooh good XD I just didn't want him abusing my baby, LOL XD -hugs

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LMAO BORN TO BE WILDE XDDDDDDDDDD *dies* *hugs*

So glad the package finally came! So sorry I screwed up the address, ahhh! D: But I'm so glad you liked it! <33 :)

That's awesome about the song and the SATS being done and you ordering awesome clothes and everything! I literally live in 70s-esque flared jeans.

Hope you get some fun in soon! I'll ttyl, probably tomorrow night (I hope!)

[hippiechic1967]

ugh, testing sucks, doesn't it??

advice on your boyfriend?
I went through the same thing with my boyfriend a few months ago, he used to piss me off SO MUCH, but other times, he was the sweetest thing since bee honey. the night he dumped me, i felt great about it, and did a jig. but after that, i missed him. we broke up two months ago, and i STILL miss him. if i were you, i'd hold on a little longer. depending on how he is, discuss things with him, you know, like let him know when he's embarrassing or making you mad. i wish i had.

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Just want you to know that I did read this a while ago, but never got the chance to reply, sadly.

But I wanted you to know that what you said Reeeeally helped me hold on to him. I really feel for you, and I'm so glad you said that, because otherwise I probably would have made one of the worst decisions of my life.
I hope you're feeling better about it, bb. : S I'm still so sorry that that happened to you. :( Take care, miss you

[hippiechic1967]

i miss you too!

and actually, i think i'm almost all over him. :) last weekend, i was texting this guy, quinn, and turns out, he's liked me for a while, and i like him. and we've gone to school together since Kindergarten! so that's going good. :D and i'm glad to hear you're doing better with your bf. :) good luck for further.

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ooh that's so good to hear! 8D I'm so happy for you, bb! And thanks so much! :D

[whtevrhpnd2mary]

You definitely need to take a break and take about two steps back from your bf. You need some rest, some time alone and time to think. It sounds to me like you may have to end it, and should it come to that, you need to do what's best for you. But, if you take time to think, you may come up with a different point of view.

Either way, you need some space and to see each other a bit less. Then you can better evaluate the whole picture. Drop me a line if you want talk more. As for the testing, I can only wish you good luck. I loathed tests. XP

BTW, nice Eng/writing scores! Now who's the good writer, eh? :D

Also, the Brown peeps sound way too shallow for you, no question. And me too. ;)

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Thanks for the advice. :) Yesterday I was able to sort everything out with him, so everything's back to where it was when we were normal a few weeks ago XD But I appreciate your views more than I can say. :)

Hehe, thanks ;) Yeah, I've pretty much decided that Brown's off the list. All they care about it stupid test scores, and I'm so much more than that! *is arrogant little brat now* XD

[mandie_rw]

Dead sleepy as I've just got back from a weekend away, and am not feeling clever enough to think of an original response, but I just want to say I agree with corleoned about the boyfriend thing. I hope you work it all out and feel better!

And don't worry about not posting much...clearly we still read when you do. :)

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Thanks so much luv! :D I worked it all out luckily :)