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in a concept
i will soon die in some way inside in the near future. I accept nor look for any pity. the decisions I have made have brought forth such a change. it does not change how i feel. death is death. whether it be on my part internally or that and something else. I die. -
ever known pain
I see it now. -
disappointed
you loose your count in life ( Read more... ) -
i haven't touched this piece of shit
in quite a while. . . and following normality that means i have been on an even keel. I HAVE A PALCE FOR EVEN. . . SHIT HURTS. AND I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. BURN BABY BURN. -
lyric
You never live till you hurt like this ( Read more... ) -
so i am
sitting here attempting to ballance what I want to do and what I should do with my days off. I want to get up go to the gym. I need to find a way to puch myself into not eating all this food that counteracts what I want to accomplish. I can't quite find a way to get home to see my family. I need to get tags on my truck and continue to do what I do ( Read more... ) -
so lately
I have spent consecutive days in sobriety. I have worked on bringing myself back to something of a normal functioning human being. I say days, which in truth are months in my life. It flies by in singular pillars. Followed by individual relapses, such as this one, which are simple blinks of God's eye in a perspective. Yet, it is about the simple ( Read more... ) -
no escape
So I had a talk with a friend back home. A big part of the reason I moved here was to get away from how people continually run their mouth about everones lives like they are God's gift to the unuverse. I returned home a while back and confided in a friend. Since then I have been continually bombarded by people who think I have become the biggest ( Read more... ) -
so I
started surfing. I really enjoy it. Not that I didn't already know I would. I love excersize. Always have. I am gaining weight which drives me insane. Its kind of pathetic. I feel like a crazy person in my head about it. Other than that everything has been alot better lately. I hardly have even touched an alcoholic drink other than gregs birthday. ( Read more... )