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Always on my mind
Haven't journaled very actively for a while really. I should write more since there is always so much on my mind. I'm stressed on the financial front as usual. Now I'm not sure if my horse is selling. Good that I don't want to sell her, bad though because I desperately need the money. The financial stress gets to me. I feel the weight of it ( Read more... ) -
who woulda thunk it? LOL
You scored as Chemistry. You should be a Chemistry major! As if that isnt clear enough, you are deeply passionate about Chemistry, and every single chemical reaction and concept fascinates you. Pursue that!
Biology
100%
Chemistry
100%
Psychology
92%
Dance
83%
English
75%
Journalism
75%
Mathematics
67%
Engineering
67%
Philosophy
58%
Sociology
58%
Linguistics
50%
Theater
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So Far
Well so far today I've only cried once though I know I'm holding it at bay. I was doing okay then I checked my e-mail and it was going smoothly at first. Then I received an e-mail from my sister showing me the perfect stallion for my mare. That was it, I started crying. I haven't broken the news to her yet that I'm selling Maji. I'm still ( Read more... ) -
Safety
To feel safe, enveloped, stable. These things, these are what I wish for. Why then don't I feel this way when I know God is with me. I think these are things I don't feel I get from my husband I guess. I will sit and cry about what is going on. My horse, another horse I have to sell. I want arms to fall into to cry. Arms that aren't there. ( Read more... ) -
Hehe
OMG!!! It is solid ice outside of my house. Not snow...Ice. It's even raining ice. It took about 10 minutes or so to thaw my Jeep out. So I called my mom who was going to come over today but now isn't for obvious reasons. I very cautiously took half steps around my vehicle as i poured ice melt on the windshield. I backed into my driveway when ( Read more... ) -
Figures
Why is it that when you want to talk to someone, no one is around? Also some of you may notice some older posts showing up, just cleanin out the closet posting stuff I have saved. -
Me Now
Hungry,hair flipped up, blue jeans and my Pismo Beach sweat shirt. Worried, I don't want to lose my house. Trying to exercise my faith that God will provide somehow. Enjoying cooking with my son. It's oh so cold outside, perhaps I should put my snow tires on, it snowed afterall. Really missing my wireless card that was in my laptop, the card ( Read more... ) -
Wow
Haven't been around in a while and LJ has really updated its looks. Nothing too thrilling going on with me. Still married, Aidan is good. Have actually made a few new friends, one is particularly wonderful. Still working on the whole happiness thing. Wondering if I will ever be really happy so long as I am married to my husband, but I'm ( Read more... ) -
Imaginary
Oooh my imagination carries me away. I daydream, think about things all the time. I probably think too much but meh, sometimes it's nice. I imagine what I want, this time the man I want, hehe yes he must be imaginary as he would be helpful to start with. He would be handsome of course to start with. Athletic, but no string bean. Nicely built ( Read more... ) -
This Day
This day is the day my daughter died four years ago. Traditionally this day does not bother me as much as her birthday. It seems it is usually part way through the day before I even make the connection. It is a bittwer sweet day. I know she's with the Lord and thankfully I still have the vision of her in heaven which I truly believe was a gift ( Read more... )