Personal revelation

[csakuras]

Secret #142 in today's fandomsecrets post made me realize some things.

One, that I am an introvert. I used to think that I was avoidant, but have since come to understand that my problems aren't that extreme. It's not that I have social anxiety or am afraid of interacting with people. I can interact with people just fine, I just don't like

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[annwyd]

This is probably why I felt so "squee!♥" when I read that Nia likes seeing Simon just quietly working on something.

omg, where did you read that? *__*

I agree with you about Simon's ending, and I may bring that up in my ship_manifesto essay. No, he's not particularly happy when we see him at the end--not like he'd have been had Nia survived--but he's not sad, either. He's content; he got what he wanted out of life. He says "I'm no one," but he says it without angst. He was someone once, and he's okay with that.

[csakuras]

omg, where did you read that? *__*

The Nia Interview in her artbook.

Q: What do you like about Simon? And if there are any secrets about Simon that only you know, please tell us.
A: I like when he is silently focused on doing something. Also, he can make all sorts of things with his drill!

And that just tells me that she totally fell for him when he was making Kamina statues in episode 11. XDD

I should probably finish translating the whole thing sometime. I've been stuck on a few questions that I don't particularly care for... XD;

[annwyd]

Just post the interesting questions, please. That would be very helpful for us Nia roleplayers! :)

[pacificpikachu]

I'm an introvert (though I'm extroverted in a few select scenarios) as well so I can understand that feeling. And I don't think it's unusual or bad at all. :D In fact, this rather helped me understand my own introversion and feel happy with it (as cheesy as that is to say about some random website article):

http://briankim.net/blog/2007/10/top-5-things-every-extrovert-should-know-about-introverts/

And I agree that Simon is an introvert. I think someone at GAINAX was saying something about that, actually... I wish I could remember what they said exactly. I also agree with Simon being in many ways my ideal man. :D;; And wanting to find someone who appreciates my introversion instead of being vaguely offput by it.

[csakuras]

Thanks for the article, it makes me happy to have read that and recognize a lot of what it says in my own life. I'll have to make my mom read that, because she keeps saying I should get therapy, even though I don't think there's anything wrong with me. It's just that I got really tired of always having to make friendly small talk with everyone I came across when I worked at her firm and she was embarrassed when some people asked her why I was so quiet. >.>

And I'd like to hear what they said about that if you could remember it. :)

[pacificpikachu]

No problem! It made me feel a little better about some of my more solitary attributes as well, so I figured I should share it with others who are the same way. I think it's definitely a good idea to show it to your mom because I don't think being introverted is a problem at all, and definitely not therapy-worthy. I get tired of making small talk as well and sometimes take steps to avoid it. It's just...hard to have a conversation about nothing in particular on a surface level, you know?

I'll try to remember it! If all else fails I have most of one of the Gurren Lagann panels taped, and I need to upload that footage and go through it anyway. I'm not sure if they said it during that panel, but regardless it'll be fun to go back through all of it. Whenever I do get to doing that (which might not be soon, but we'll see), I'll definitely share the footage with you. ♥

[csakuras]

It's just...hard to have a conversation about nothing in particular on a surface level, you know?

Seriously. I even do that with LJ comments. If I don't have anything to say, I just don't bother. >_>;

Eeee, that's awesome! Thanks. :D

Re: I started to respond to your post, but I think I went off the rails somewhere.

[csakuras]

I think for introverts, the best might be to have a balance of real life/internet relationships? Like when I'm at college, my social life consisted of Anime Club meetings 2-3 times a week, and that was enough. When I'm at home, I go to Writer's Group meetings once a week. In both cases, I'm meeting people who share my interests, so we don't have to bother with small talk and can instead get into fun and interesting discussions. Occasionally I also meet up with friends from those groups to eat dinner or go see a movie.

For the rest of the week, I have the internet. And then there's my mom, who I see everyday, and who drags me out to go places, which I appreciate. :)

Anything more than that would just wear me out. Though I would still like having a close friend who I can watch anime with, or maybe a boyfriend, I'm not terribly needy at the moment. I used to feel that having such a small social circle was pathetic, but now I'm starting to feel better about it.