Paint it Black; chapter 3

[crystal_marbles]

Title: Paint it Black 
Fandom: Glee
Rating:  R  
Pairings: Blaine/Kurt, Finn/Rachel 
Warnings/Themes: Rape, victim-blaming & asexuality 
Word count:  1437 (this chapter) // 5000+ in total.  
Summary: In the aftermath of a sexual assault Kurt struggles to recover while coming to terms with the fact that not everyone is equal in the eyes of the law.

Comments

[nothingtoprovex]

Ughhh this story just breaks my heart, and I love Blaine in this, he's so...realistic in the scenario. The silence, the hurt, the anger, the empathy, the determination...as someone who was sexually assaulted, I can tell you that these emotions do go through strongly, and the confusion and blacking out and ignoring of the problem to not have to think about it for once instead of the rest of your life...it's well written, and I'm moved by how well you wrote this. I just hope you didn't have to go through the same thing I did or that Kurt does in order to get the characterization right, because that would be just...horrible.

*hug*

[crystal_marbles]

I am so sorry that happened to you. No one should have to go through that. I am a survivor too(unfortunratly), but my experiences are very different from Kurts so I was a little worried about wether or not it was realistic so I'm glad you're liking it so far. Though, the confusion and black outs is something I can definitely relate too and I definitely tapped into my issues with dissociation in writing that.

I any case I am glad you're liking it and there will definitely be more focus on Blaine as the story progresses. =)

*Hugs you back* ♥

(Feel free to PM if you want to talk more about it. I'd be glad to talk. =) )

[nothingtoprovex]

I'm not afraid to talk about it in the open...it actually helps me deal with it

[crystal_marbles]

Ugh, that sounds awfull. I'm slighlty agoraphobic as it is and I can't imagine what i would have done if I was attacked like that on the street. I'd probably never leave my apartment again. Though good on you for kicking him! That must have taken a lot of guts!

As for me it was more longterm. I was sexually abused as a very young child by a family member as such I was a little worried about this coming out right. I've never really had to deal with the "shock" factor or sudden change that kind of attack would bring. To me it was a (horrifying) constant in my life as a opposed to an interruption so the mental issues and problems are a little different from what happened to you(and Kurt).

What I'm basically trying to say is that I'm glad you think it's realistic although I'm sad you had to experience it to be able to tell. It's also totally cool that your working to help people despite your own issues. And your x(?)boyfriend sounds awesome. =)

[emiloowho]

I spent years of my childhood being sexually abused.
There's a lot of things I can't even remember and I've had a hard time dealing with it.
This story is so beautiful and I cry every time I read it because I can remember what it felt like to be so numb. I still feel that way sometimes.
Blaine in this is absolutely amazing, and if you don't mind me saying, reminds me of my boyfriend. I hope you keep writing it, it's really wonderful and heart wrenching.

[crystal_marbles]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. I was also sexually abused big parts of my childhood and writing stuff like this is really helping me deal with my emotions. The fact that other survivors(if you like that term) are liking it is making me really touched and happy.

I will definitely write more and I'm glad you're liking it so far. =)
(Btw; Your boyfriend sounds really awesome! ;P )

[blairwitch]

This hits close to home for me too, in fact, it's so eerily similar because my boyfriend at the time reacted almost exactly as Blaine did. When reading this, I knew you must have been through it too and I'm very sorry you had to. But I'm also heartened that you've been able to channel it into such beautiful writing, it definitely does get better :)

*hugs* Thanks for writing!

[crystal_marbles]

Oh, I'm so glad you like it! I am so sorry you had to go through that, though.

The fact that other survivors like this is making posting it so very worth it. =) Thanks a lot for comment. I know it's a sensitive issue. ♥

*Hugs you back*

[crystal_marbles]

Yeah, Blaine is having a hard time dealing with Kurt. There's bound to be a bit strain on their relationship after this, that's for sure..

Anyway; I'm glad you liked it. =)