my mom is coming back from florida and setting me free from the bondage of motherhood tomorrow just in time for me to work for two days!!!! i haven't been home for weeks! i feel like my boyfriend dumped me and i moved back in with mom. i haven't seen much of pat and i feel like i no longer live on my own ( Read more... )

i almost want to hysterically cry. i got into reading old livejournal entries. i'm terrified now. i've lost my personality. i have none now. i'm jaded. i'm fucking jaded! exactly like i never wanted to be! it's like garden state. fuck ( Read more... )

i've been living at my moms and caring for my two sisters and the foster baby. that's why i've been off the radar for weeks. i'm exhausted. my mom has to be in florida with my aunt because she's nearing the end of her battle with brain cancer and my mom wants to be there at the end. even when my mom gets back i assume i'll be here helping. i don't ( Read more... )

saturday was the second anniversary of my dad's death. and my stepmom penny's 60th birthday. i feel like i didn't do enough to celebrate him. but i guess you could say we commemorated his death by all of us being together-- penny, me, cynthia, jon, and the kiddies. i suppose we can't do much more for him now ( Read more... )

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so in the past week, i've done some things i've always been meaning to do. it feels great. slowly my anxieties are being put to rest. i was offered a few assistantships/odd jobs this summer/fall. i'm excited about that. i'd love to just do this for a while. chillax a bit ( Read more... )

oh man, the world lately. isn't it strange how the world goes on, time keeps passing with no regard for anything or anybody? a guy at my work, his grandfather had a massive heart attack the night before but he came into work monday and worked all day knowing that once he left, he had to go to the hospital where they would try to take his ( Read more... )

if you guys could feel what i've been feeling in the past week, you'd commit me to a psych ward. you would. today i listened to music for the first time in like a week. as i said before my heart's weighed so heavy and my head's been so busy that adding music to it just made me want to rip my hair out. but last night and today i felt more depressed ( Read more... )

so my last class in my undergraduate education is in an hour. except i still don't feel anything but dread because my thesis is not done and it's not due until monday so until then, no time to relax ( Read more... )

what days are good for people to come to my place for a party? maybe we could even do it during the day outside or something? maybe a huge picnic at delaware park to celebrate the end of cory's, pat's, monica's, etc.'s semesters and my finally earning my bachelor's. i was thinking even a weekday late afternoon like 2 pm.. especially if its at a ( Read more... )