My tattoo is such utter bullshit. "No regrets". Suppose to be how I live my life. But it's more like how I keep TRYING to live my life and failing miserably. I think about the past and look at old pictures, and they make me more than just nostalgic. It makes me sad, and it makes me wonder. What's worse is that I'm usually pretty good at not ( Read more... )

Fuck you dreams...you're not making this any easier. And my dear imagination? Yea, you're an asshole too...

I'm going to hurt my cousin. Preferably before he kills himself ( Read more... )

When your past comes back to haunt you,
Your dreams invading reality,
Where do you turn to keep the sanity?
When you war against yourself,
All of it beginning to blur together,
How long will it take before everything just falls apart?

I'm beginning to think my brain is my arch-nemesis...

I feel so lost...

And my dream self really needs to STFU.

Oh. Well...fuck.

so it's been a while, and it probably would have been even longer, but I don't know who I can talk to about this who won't judge me ( Read more... )

I don't know if I can fully explain the way he makes me feel. Explain and actually do justice to the well of emotions that have come rushing forth since he's slowly begun to tear down my walls. He makes me feel whole. Its like, where I end, he begins. And vice versa. And I'm realizing more and more every day how much we truly fit. He makes me break ( Read more... )

It's been an interesting and chaotic few months. And I'm enjoying every second of it. Well, minus the lack of sleep because I'm trying to squeeze everything into what little free time I have. But I'm getting use to that. lol o and certain boy drama, but I think that all worked out for the best ( Read more... )

I couldn't be Roy's Kasey.
I couldn't be Ed's Erica.
I couldn't be Sam's NC girl.
I can't even be the girl Rob's looking for because I can't be with him the way he wants me to.
Why can't I ever be what they want? Or what makes them stick around? I'm just a temporary fix.
Sometimes I just wish I could be more.