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Apr 15, 2004 20:35

*sigh* Just as I figured, he would go today. At around 8:30 pm, my second Grandfather died. He died peacefully in his sleep.I guess.. What really hurts about this is that I still haven't dealt with my own Grandfather's death.. He went on Halloween Day (which was, conveniently, a certain party).. I went to the party instead of staying home.. And I ( Read more... )

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crossfire22 April 15 2004, 19:07:57 UTC

Brandon... you won't become a cold, bitter person as long as you have your friends around. We love you, we really do! You are one of the nicest, funniest people I've ever met, not to mention you're one of the few people I consider a "true" friend. *hugs*... things will get better, promise.

Again. Need to talk, I'm hurr.

nekoninarumon April 15 2004, 19:15:03 UTC

Not showing tears does not necesarrily mean you aren't sad.
We all have our own ways to deal. Maybe crying just isn't the way to go for you.I never really have dealt with death, the 2 funerals I've been to I wasn't too close too, the only death that was 'close to home' was my kitty. And my wsy of dealing with that was rage, but then again there was someone directly at fault...
anyway, the point is, I'm sure you miss him, and you'll find a way to deal, it's a natural process, and for some losses, they may take a bit longer than others.

anonymous April 15 2004, 19:45:21 UTC

i think everyone puts up a shield. suprisingly enough, i do. the only time i ever remember crying in front of my friends is november 16th the day after blue, and i've always held in my pain, whether i'm sad, mad, or even hurt. if i get hurt now i'll laugh, no matter how much pain i'm in. and now i've noticed that i've been putting on an act at times when i'm down, i'll put on an act that i'm so happy that nothing can bring me down. and i've been so good that not even my closest freinds or even my own family can tell, and then as soon as i'm by myself i'll break down and sob. and i feel horrible about holding in my feelings just like you, but as long as you recognize your emotions i think it is ok. and i doubt you could ever be an emotionless shell of a person. it just isn't possible. plus you got to many things that are good to hold you back, like your friends who, let me remind you, love you. i'm very sorry about your loss. i've lost a grandpa, and he was my most favorite person in the world. be happy that you got to ( ... )