Comments | crazytrain89: will i wake tommorrow from this nightmare??

crazytrain89

will i wake tommorrow from this nightmare??

Jan 20, 2006 16:47

I'm in a blur. In a whirl-wind, and i might getting a little desperate. A load of things have been happening. A whole freggin' load. That i've been carrying...and it feels like weight of the whole. plus some. i've been losing my dignity and self-respect (there was little to begin with anyways).

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This Is Suzie anonymous January 21 2006, 00:58:13 UTC

Well just cawse you haven't gotten anyone you want YET doesn't mean you aren't beautiful. It just means that.... you haven't gotten anyone you wanted. Yet. Cause this is just high school, and you have ::grabs calculator:: 58 years til you reach the average life expectancy. 29 years until you are over the average hill. Not to mention real "meaningful relationships" actually start in high school. So technically, you've only been relationshipping for about 2.5 years. That's about 3.4% of your life. Not exactly a lot. So it's too soon to feel hopeless. Cause you are beautiful!
--Suzie--

(oh and I did all the calculations myself... well with the help of a calculator but still.)

Re: This Is Suzie crazytrain89 January 21 2006, 08:08:36 UTC

ha yeah. wow. i got a lot to live. unless i die doing something stupid early in life. which would suck...but anywho. thanks!
i <3 you!!!!!!

caligirltnt5 January 21 2006, 17:25:46 UTC

i'm not being nice b/c quite frankly it's hard not to get in a bit of a bitchy mood when i'm jealous and i am jealous!!! (still love ya though) and you know what else maybe you don't hear it b/c it is u but i've hung out with you when we're around guys and ur outta earshoot and they think ur beautiful too! so if u say ur not pretty one more time i may have to shoot myself b/c if ur not pretty then i must really look like shit!so now that i'm feeling abit less confident b/c that makes me shit i'm gonna stop typing on this rather long comment. byes for now you know how to reach me if ya wanna hang out (hope we can soon)
~Tina~

crazytrain89 January 23 2006, 15:49:17 UTC

tina. im so sorry. i didn't intend on hurting you or making you feel bad cuz i <3 ya and i wouldnt want to hurt you...but its me. honestly. i hate myself more than anyone or anything (yes. even more than school. haha)...i'm not sucidial...damn i don't wanna die...but i can't stand myself most of the time, so i guess that makes me feel the way i do.

you are an awesome person. i <3 you!

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bhndblueyes January 23 2006, 15:14:18 UTC

I'm not lying when I say it. Honestly Gina you are one of my best friends and you know that I wouldn't lie to you. You have so much to live for and you will find someone that will blow you away. I know that you will, you will find someone that treats you wonderfully and everything like that. Gina look at the bright side, you still have college to live for and maybe if we both decided to go to APP we'll be roomates. I heart you. You're a wonderful person don't forget that

~Lauren

crazytrain89 January 23 2006, 15:46:12 UTC

thank you. i really really hope i do. cuz i see everyone with someone and its all "ahhhhhh" and its been like this for 1 1/2 years now. thatd be soo fun if we both went to app state and were roomates. itd be like a freggin' party every night. haha. study parties. remember those??

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