wow d!! its been a long ass time huh? i dont really know where to begin.. alot of shit has been goin down.. i dont know if your ready for me to type it all... well its offical... im the biggest fuckin idot in the world... i would just like to point that out for all the people out there in live journal world.... I WANT TO FIND A ESCAPE.. I WANT TO ( Read more... )

yeah well i just came back from olivia with sam and corissa and it was really nice seein all of us together ya know.. but anyways... my plan on gettin really really fucked up didnt work out soo well.. maybe its for the better ya know.. yeah but i got alot on my mind and i dont know if i am able to type it all.. soo my granny died last wenesday.. r. ( Read more... )

hey whats up d? yeah i just got off the phone with harry and my aunt and my brother.. now i just need to get in touch with corissa.... today is a day of gettin shit done.. i want to drink tonight.. but im not sure where and when and how im fuckin broke until i get paid.. soo ill just flash someone for a drink.. ya know how it is.. :) work was work ( Read more... )

whats up d? well im soo tired today.... i dont know what it is.. i really dont feel like myself though.. i would much rather type than talk right now.... I want to take a nice hot bath though.. yummy it would really help :-D play girl.. now thats what im talkin about.... its time to get me a couple of those mags. if ya know what i mean!!lol jk it ( Read more... )

hey whats up? nothing much here i just got done eatin dinner with martins fam. yeah and it was my 2nd day at work!! WHOO HOOOO :) go Rachel go Rachel go ( Read more... )

watchin american history X... god this movie really bums me out... blah blah blah so I got a Job today YEAH!! NOW I CAN PAY OFF MY DUES!! but ive just found out that my grandmother is close to dying...soo today isnt really all that great.. god.. sometimes i wish that it was me that was takin my last breath and leaving this cruel mean world.. but ( Read more... )

OK... well lately Ive been feelin like shit... im havin these horrible mood swings and I just feel like cryin my eyes out or throwing my fist into the fuckin wall.. I dont know whats wrong with me and sometimes i feel as if i take it out on martin.. I'll get mad at him for something stupid, or just not talk to him because im going to blow up.. ( Read more... )

soo bored, i just feel like typin though.. lets see whats on my mind right now.. im about to go back to the apartment soon.. hopefully i can work tonight.. make that fuckin money.. ya know how it goes.. i dont really want to work with jen though.. angie seems alot cooler.. but but but.. that whole valley girl shit has got to go.. i have an attitude ( Read more... )

hey d whats up? same old shit different day... you know how it goes.. i havent had sex in forever.. i think that its starting to take a huge toll on my attitude.. but i give it o about another week in a half when this shit is all over with.. o my life so much at 18.. its hard sometimes but i think that it could always be worse.. blah blah blah at ( Read more... )

Hey d.. what the fuck is up with ya? nothing much here same old shit different day... Im at martins hes soo sick he stayed home from work today and yesturday he came home early.. aww my poor babe.. what am i goin to do today.. my body aches i think that im getting sick to.. i hope not... well i hope that corissa and i can talk soon so i can figure ( Read more... )