i am so sleepy and yet i cannot sleep because i cannot help how i feel.

possession is what happens when we swallow all our demons.
(possession is the phenomenon of swallowing all our demons?)

 nais ko pa ring pakiligin ka, kahit paminsan-minsan lang.

You accidentally press "Back" and everything you write down is deleted.

Not that it matters. I did not need for anyone to see it. Proof: I still feel like I let something out, and that was already worth it.

I think that the most difficult thing is to write honestly about how you feel. Because to write it down is to acknowledge its existence, to make ( Read more... )

 but i'm working on this one, and at the end of the day, i'm not sure whether i'll be proud that i see this in print in a few days, with my name on it, forever readily accessible from the caches of the world wide web, forever attributable my name, but goddamnit, i am not sleeping until i am at least satisfied with how it turns out, because this is ( Read more... )

 It's nice to see that my friends still write about the new year on livejournal.

i am the atlas, upon which
your ivory weight
rests

disproportionately--
under stress,
my knees buckle

you are dead
weight
hanging heavy on my shoulders

like Atlas, i shrug.

 The first floor of my house is a unity of space. There are no boundaries separating living room from workspace from dining area from from kitchen. Only the bathroom is enclosed, with two walls and a door ( Read more... )

I no longer write about the things that concern me, because there is no audience apart from myself. Seeing as I know these things, I see no reason why I should be telling them to myself all over again.

My work is what Barthes would call "prattle." My voice is a minor disaster of static.

But blogging has always been nothing more to me than an act of ( Read more... )

i miss writing here.

i maintain three blogs, none of which i update.

senti mode me.

 Daddy's home.

This only means two things:
 1. I can get to much-needed work. Deadlines, they breathe down, down on my neck~
2. I can play copious amounts of FIFA 09. MY TEAMS HOW I'VE MISSED YOU

Less importantly, I am no longer sick. I have been for a week. I still have loads of mouth infections, which is unfortunate, but there's nothing I can do ( Read more... )