My mom left to d.r yesterday since my grandmother is dying. When I found out my grandmother was dying I was a lil'

like damn but I didnt think as much of it but yesterday when my mom was getting ready I just felt like shit, I

started crying I even went out to the hallway and just stood there smoking a cig. I thought to myself damn wow I

never got ( Read more... )

Well today was like wack ofcourse cuz it was valentines day... Its like damn wtf I can't wait for this day to be over already. I chilled in my house on my computer and my valentines were my cig's and my mother. My mom left afterwards and I have nothing but myself and my cig's AWWW how fucking cute but anyways it couldve been worst. Anyways today is ( Read more... )

Right now Im having so much thoughts about everything and anything. Everyday people and their ways are getting more clear to me. My points about people and their ways are getting proven more and more everyday. As the days pass I feel more alone especially now ... I know I am alone. I don't know what the hell is the purpose of this world if God's ( Read more... )

Im just sitting here 3:23 AM talking to my friend robbie which is in the navy. Im hungry and thinking of wtf to eat and umm yea IDK wtf to talk about im gonna go stuff my face cuz I can fucking do that.

p.s IF I FIND SOMETHING 2 EAT!

SO MY B-DAY WAS THE 26TH UMMM... YESTERDAY RIGHT/?? UMM YEA OK ANYWAYS I WENT OUT WITH MY TWO CHILD HOOD FRIENDS ONE OF THEM TOOK ME TO OLDNAVY AND BOUGHT ME A PAIR OF JEANS AND TWO SHIRTS AND THEN MY OTHER FRIEND BOUGHT ME A TRACK JACKET FROM THERE AS WELL SO DAT WAS FUCKING KOOL. I THANKS GOD THAT I WAS ABLE TO AT LEAST RECEIVE THAT FOR MY
B-DAY ( Read more... )

PEOPLE GET ON MY MOTHER FUCKING NERVES PPL ARE SO INRESPONSIBLE THEY TELL U ONE THING AND THEY DO THE OTHER THEN THEY WANNA MAKE IT SEEM LIKE DAMN U SHOULDN'T BE MAD ..... U DAMN MOTHER FUCKING RITE IMMA BE MAD ... SHIT! NI99AS WANNA MAKE PLANS AND THEN WAIT TILL MAD MOTHER FUCKIN LATE TO DO THEM LIKE PPL DON'T GOT SHIT TO DO. LIKE WTF YO THIS SHIT ( Read more... )

I FEEL SO TRASHY AT THIS MOMENT I FEEL WEAK I FEEL AS IF ALL THE STRENGTH I THOUGHT I HAD ITS SLOWLY DISSAPEARING AND SOME THINGS JUST MAKE IT WORST. MY HURT IS DEEP INSIDE WAITING TO BE LET OUT IVE LET OUT ENOUGH I THINK I WANNA JUST ERASE THE PAIN ONCE AND FOR ALL. I FEEL SO PISSED... I FEEL SO SAD... IDK I HATE THIS FEELING. NO ONE CAN HELP ME ( Read more... )

TODAY I WENT TO MY BLOCK WELL TO 170 MY BLOCK SAME SHIT W/E AND I WAS WALKING AND I SAW ALL THE FUCKING LITTLE KIDS COMING OUT OF SCHOOL AND SHIT AND I HAD THE ONLY FLASHBACK AND IT MADE ME TYPE SAD CUZ I STARTED THINKING ABOUT WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL IN FUCKING ELEMENTARY AND MY MOM USED TO PICK ME UP AND THEN I WOULD STAND IN A BIG ASS CROWD WAITING ( Read more... )

I DONT KNOW TODAY I FEEL SO GOOD ABOUT MYSELF. LIKE I HAD THIS CONVERSATION WITH THIS DUDE KEVIN AND I FELT SO WORTH IT CUZ JUST RE-READING WHAT I WAS WRITING MADE ME THINK OF THE MUCH OF A GREAT PERSON I AM... YEAH I HAVE MY ISSUES AND I HAVE MY DAYS WHERE IT SEEMS LIKE IM A SUCH A BITCH BUT I KNOW BESIDES THAT IM AN INCREDIBLE PERSON I KNOW IF ( Read more... )

IM LIKE HERE AND SHIT ALL BORED AFTER LIKE I HAD A PRETTY KOOL WEEKEND CHILLIN WITH MY PPL'S AT A PARTY AND THEN THE WHOLE SLEEP OVER ITS USUALLY FUN. ...I COME BACK HOME TO HEAR THIS LADY'S(MOM)MOUTH AND BE STUCK HERE IN MY FUCKIN HOUSE AND SHIT. LIKE WTF? THEN MY MOM WONDERS WHY I ALWAYS BE OUT. SHIT.... IF I DONT BOUNCE I'LL FUCKIN DIE OR SOME ( Read more... )