it's been a while..

cutting, i've stopped a while ago...now its back, and even better.

1. rainbow and heart on my left leg
2. 100 + X's on the left inside of my arm
3. a heart with an X crossing it out of my left wrist
4. 7 crosses on my left arm
5. two hearts and a half of a star on my right ankle

and theres more to come...

why do new people always befriend you then they wind up using you.

just like that NIN song eraser...

use me
hate me
smash me
erase me

kill me

thats a good song when a friend just fucked up you life right?

this year....is very fun filled,depressing,anger filled for me. i got lots more ISS's and got sent t the principals office a lot.

but hey....this is fun as hell.

i have no friends now but thats okay...they are all fuckers anyways, not good friends at all.

i dont have much to say...but thats all i'm writing for another long time..

well, i got an ISS in school today.

i cussed out a teacher cuz she wouldn't let me got the bathroom.

oh well....i still went!

motherfuckers!!!!!!!!!!

well school started and i am going good with my not eating plan.

i mean i lose like 2 or three pounds in two days...

i'm also really considering committing suicide.

my life is just so confusing, and i can't sort it out.

i just....

...i don't know.

scissors are cool.

yesterday i cut my wrist a little with one.
it was....nice.

i can't go to the karnival of khaos....i'm too young.

wow, i've gotten drunk a lot this past month..,

psh...like i care?

it's fucking fun, not to mention is very soothing...in a nauseating sort of way.....

fuck....

i've really let myself go into insanity.
didn't i?

do you know how much fun that concert was??

jesus, i had a blast!
that was the first concert i've been to, it rocked, so i can't wait for the karnival of khaos.

i enjoyed all the gropes i had, and all the pushes and pulls, after all it was worth it.

i found the sharpest knife in the house,
but its not a knife.

it's a tool, and its really dirty. thats not fair. i finally found the sharpest object in the house..and its dirty.

well, let me see what i can do to find another sharp tool.

-_-.....