Fic: Nothing to Kill or Die For

[cowboyguy]

Title: Nothing to Kill or Die ForSummary: Sam is back from Hell and is one giant mess of sensory issues and hallucinations. The common cold is just not something he can easily deal with. Dean tries his best to help, because it’s Sam

Comments

[tarotgal]

Cheers! You know I love it. But it was still great to read the final version. And I can't wait to read more in the series.

On a side note, I really want to write a spin-off: The Idiot’s Guide to Lucifer’s Cage but only if there's a chapter on how to best hug your Sam Winchester when he gets out. Aw, boys. Dean would do anything for Sam... and it's fascinating to see what anything really is here.

Well done!

[cowboyguy]

Oh, I give you complete permission to do that!

[agelade]

I love love love post-Hell fics like this, and I have to say, Dean's use of trivia Sam doesn't know to prove to Sam that Dean is real? Brilliant! I love the rhythm of it too, how he phrases it like a question so that Sam has the opportunity to deduce for himself that no, he didn't know that, this must not be just a projection of my brain. Rather than Dean just telling him he's real, which wouldn't work at all. Gosh, I just really love it, all of it. All the research, kind of a mirror to when Dean was electrocuted in season one and Sam surrounded himself with research about his condition. These boys!

[cowboyguy]

Thanks! I've always been frustrated with how this stuff just gets kind of glossed over in the show. "You spent a hundred plus years in the most terrible place imaginable? Eh, you'll be fine." So I really tried to imagine what it must be like to suddenly be back in reality and having to deal again. And I figure if Sam has gotten used to Hell, then this is all of the stuff that must not seem quite real.

I'm glad you liked it!

[indiachick]

This is very, very good. I love the pace of this, the warmth and sadness, never over the top, perfectly balanced. I keep thinking I'm completely over hell-fics, but then something like this comes along and proves that I will never be. I love how Dean uses trivia to ground Sam, I love the research he does just to help him cope, just--everything. Brilliant. Please write all the fic.

[cowboyguy]

Thank you so much! I'm glad it worked, because I tried really hard to avoid making it overly schmoopy but still comforting.

I will most definitely write all the fic. :D

[jennytork]

I have Asperger's with a side of mild sensory processing disorders and this story left me crying in the best of ways.

What Sam goes through in this fic is a much exaggerated version of what I deal with daily. His coping mechanisms are so true and real they hit me in the best of ways.

Dean's compassion and care are very in character and I love how you told it from his POV.

Thank you for this.

[cowboyguy]

Aw, sorry I made you cry, but thank you so much! It really means a lot to me to hear you say that.

My brother has sensory processing disorder, too, so I've grown up with it from an outsider perspective. I'm glad to hear this worked for you. And I'm glad my Dean was in character, too. He's so much more touchy in this than in the show, so I hoped it would still be believable.

Thank you!

[trishabooms]

That was lovely. I liked this gentle, caring Dean.

[cowboyguy]

Thank you! :)

[manzanita_crow]

That was so heartbreaking/heartwarming. I suffer from mental health issues - although they're naturally much less severe than post-Hell Sam's would be - and I wish I had a Dean to look after me on bad days

[cowboyguy]

Yeah, I wish that, too. :) The world would be a much better place if everyone could just get a hug from a Winchester sometimes.

Thanks for the comment. Glad you liked it!