Every night is the same old shit!!Then they wonder why i don't ever come home! i cant take it anymore. It's literally tearing me up inside. I don't know if i can take them calling me one more name! I'm running outta escapes! I'm in tears constently wether its on the inside or the out! My eyes burn and my stomach turns i want to scream, BUT I Dont ( Read more... )

Sometimes you realize no matter what they all say... no matter what medical degree a person has they cant know what its like to live the life an addict lives if they themselves have never been an addict. i dont understand how they think they can help me to deal with all my "problems"! they have all these 12 step programs, but what do you do when i ( Read more... )

I'm addicted to love!

I'm addicted to hate!

I'm addicted to lies!

I'm addicted to pain!

I'm addicted to sex!

I'm addicted to running(away from my fears)!

I'm addicted to make-up!

I'm addicted to self distruction!

I'm addicted to attention!

I'm addicted to pretending!

I'm addicted to guilt!

I'm addicted to insecurties!

I'm addicted to acception!

I' ( Read more... )

I feel like shit!

What do you do when you cant function?

When you depend on something so much you cant live without it?

When everyone tells you thats your problem,but how is that the problem...

When its the one thing that fixs everything!?!?

When it's the one thing that makes you feel so great!

When you hate yourself so much and its the one thing ( Read more... )

wow lately lifes been crazy!!! i dont even know! i have been bouncing around alot as usual! my dad is hving surgey on the 20 and im sooo scared about it! i love him so much hes the best father a girl could have ever asked for hes my world! i dont know what i would do without him!!! i mean i know hes not perfect and we dont have a storybook life but ( Read more... )

wow it has been for ever since i updated! there are alot of new things going on with me... i dont even know where to start some are good and some are bad! me and kelley have been getting closer and thats good i am so grateful for her! i know i can tell her anything! and there are few other people that are close enough to me. i do have my cow and ( Read more... )

well not much has happened lately im just been chillin went snowboarding and stuff yah jonell is finally 16 and jesses gonna be 21 tomarow ahhhhhhhhh thats soo crazy anyways i dont have much to say oh ya i love yNg its the best i cant wait for sac! its going to be soooooo awesome

well today was pretty kool went to the promande with jonell got i great ass deal on some pants 32.00 at ambercrombie(how ever you spell it) ate some jhonnie rockets and then went to micheals i love that store  on sunday i went and saw meet the fockers with jen hente and nick it was funny as hell i was have a blonde day on sunday jay eli and hente ( Read more... )

well tonight is xams eve and i have no idea what im doing these last few days have been hectic but what ever i hope the new year goes better than this year has... anyways so gald i got to chill with friends that i hadnt in a long time

first entry in my new journal... well xams break has been kool chillin workin for the church and dirt biking was tight