I don't trust myself. It is so ridiculous really, that I find this out because I won't let myself loosen up for improv. Hahahha, I will run up bills at a therapist's office because I won't take my scene partners initiation and run with it. I censor myself and then I shrug off my responses like...."well, this is what I wanted to offer to you in a ( Read more... )

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Everytime my Dad starts to eat, he starts to choke/cough. It is like he is so excited to be able to sit down and enjoy his meal that he scarfs it down and it goes down the wrong pipe. I used to yell at him, but now I just stare in beamusement ( Read more... )

Two months have passed since my last entry. I've gained three more stamps in my passport and that makes me happy. I have made long lasting relationships with my family who I did not think I would love as much as I do in such a short period of time. I gained sisters, brothers, and best friends but most of all..I gained a sense of self. It sounds so ( Read more... )

oh fuck, i forgot everything that i wanted to update with so i'll just ramble until something of importance pops up. Wednesday is my last full day in the United States. Its funny calling our country "the States." It kind of reminds me of "the Hills", the producers of that show automatically want you to assume that the only hills important enough ( Read more... )

Hi. It's been a long time but like I always say, I want to make writing a major part of my life so I thought I would get the fingers some excerise on the keyboard ( Read more... )

i have to get myself in that writing mood, the one where your mind just shuts off and your finger just type out the perfect words. i never get quite there but i find it good to warm up. i love this with my eyes closed, feet up listening to Owen, because he is the only person i can hear sing and still get some work done. i don't care for punctuation ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just wonder what is the point of life? I don't want to work at a crappy entry-level job if I'm not going to love it. Today we were talking about Marxism and ideologies and it just really got me down. Also, they closed down the branch of my internship and my bosses are out of a job. No warning, or anything. It was awful because they had ( Read more... )

and I hope you realized that I meant the rehab facility (specifically the one Lindsey Lohan was in). It's a nice outpatient program where I'm left alone in my room yet sometimes we go out to meetings known as dinner time ( Read more... )