i bought black and pink air force ones and decided to quit the things that make me sad. im ready to be a person again, in new york and in richmond. soon, hopefully in philadelphia and buenos aires as well.

a lot of the time i feel like i would rather be slagging down colt 45 out of tropical fantasy gingerale bottles in the backyard of abc no rio in late 2002 than doing much else. if im nostalgic for that period of time then shits really fucked.

1. i am doing so much school that its almost enabling me to forget how blindingly unhappy i am ( Read more... )

earlham college
box 915
801 national road west
richmond, in
47374
or...
421 college ave.
apartment c.
richmond, in
47374.

a list of things i am bringing to school ( Read more... )

1. moving into my house in richmond in about ten days ( Read more... )

1. dates to coney island.
2. going swimming with all our clothes on and smooching in the waves.
3. purple rain.
4. classy white wine.
5. new york in the summer time.
6. my heart moving across the country.
7. growing up.
8. things really being ok.
9. working five days this week.
10. reading gossip girl, out loud.

five days since this sweetness started.
ten days until my heart moves across the country.
thirty two days until i am in indiana again, pretty much for good.
what am i doing with myself?

when you have to avoid nearly everyone you used to know in the city you grew up in, you know its time to move on.
tompkins square park, july 22nd, memorial for shaun. just fucking come.

i think ive figured out where im at and so ive gone from soulcrushingly depressed and only being able to drink alone and watch the oc to being just really sad a lot but with tons of room for improvement.
its been quite the week.