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Runnin' in and out of my mind
Well, I'm here. A KC resident for 11 days, I'm realizing that this transition is not as seamless as I anticipated. On the contrary, it's been rather difficult. Yes, it could be much much worse, but I find myself wishing that it was much much better.
I'm unsure of where to begin - how to begin. I just really hate the transitory periods of life. No ( Read more... ) -
Moving Eve
Breathe. -
The birds will sing that you are part of everything
I have terrible skin. It has become my new obsession. I hate it with every inch of my being. I hate looking at it, touching it, feeling it. My skintone is uneven. My face is always either too oily or too dry. No matter what I do, I just cannot seem to command it. I hate my skin. It's too sensitive. I almost always get razorburn lately and I don't ( Read more... ) -
My my my
Even though 2009 consisted of a film hiatus for me, I still thoroughly enjoyed watching the Academy Awards. It is surprising, yet heartwarming to know that parts of my life can remain consistent, even if I don't realize it ( Read more... ) -
A distant motorcade and suddenly there's joy
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I have a feeling that a really good scream is just what I need.
There is a such a huge amount of frustration and FEAR inside my body right now. A thousand different questions, comments, and concerns which all add up to an overwhelming feeling of inferiority and straight up terror.
I have gotten ( Read more... ) -
I'ma be
It was a good day.
Congrats to Lindsey Vonn and Shaun White on their Olympic Golds.
I suddenly feel very off-put. Like judgements are upon me.
I'm too tired now. gnite.
P.S. "Imma Be" by the Black Eyed Peas is easily the most annoying song I've ever heard. Ugh. -
A day's worth of Facebook
Jackie Holl ( Read more... ) -
There's something there that wasn't there before
Well that went unexpectedly well and relatively simply. After a week of ho-humming and insecurity, I finally bucked up the courage to relate my concerns to Adam. I didn't know what to expect - I never do. But it was good. No fighting, no excuses, just straight up. The way things always ought to be. So, I'm feeling much better now than I was. No, it ( Read more... ) -
well, it was a good start...
I have an urge to push aside the mess and plop down on the floor. There's no reason to do that, the same as there is no reason NOT to do that ( Read more... ) -
There's nothing holding you back
I really don't like to spotlight the negativities, but sometimes the battle of the brain must overflow into the outside world. One bad day can bring up a slew of bad feelings that have been brewing within, which is why tonight is the only chance I'll ever really have to get this shit out.
I am extremely bothered by the fact that the Olympics begin ( Read more... )